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Fucked Up Again

Sounds awful and humiliating, PK, and I am really sorry. You have such a good head on your shoulders and such a good and open heart. I think that your idea about going away and working somewhere where you are away from drinking sounds good but is that really possible? I mean what is really remote from alcohol--it's everywhere!:( What about rehab? Is that possible or would you be open to trying that? I think that you will kick this. You want to, so you will.<3
 
Are you addicted to the substance or do you not have an off button when consuming? I'm the latter. It's best to allocate your wallet beforehand. With friends it is a bit harder if they have a bottomless supply, so to speak.
 
Just don't drink! If you know this cycle will continue, then be a designated driver. Your drunk friends will remain alive and happy. As well, less people will get DUI's and such. :)

You can also get help if you don't think you are able to quit drinking without some other form of help.
 
I agree with Captain.Heroin - it sounds like you don't feel a need to drink, rather to continue drinking once you've started. If that's the case, better to avoid drinking all together for a little while, until you feel like you have a bit more control at least :)
Or maybe try to stay away from all parties/events where there'll be too much alcohol, etc. And then yes, outside help is always great. Good luck!
 
When I was drinking, I'd make a fool of myself CONSTANTLY. I know exactly how you feel. Finding out the next day what happened, what I did and said, and all those apologies I've had to make. All the terrible first (and often last) impressions I've made on people while shitfaced.

It sounds like this is a cycle that follows you. Alcohol just doesn't agree with all of us, even though it might feel like it does when it's in our system. If you need to take time away from people and keep to yourself for a while, away from substances; if that's what it would take, then give it a shot. After some time sober, you'll feel a lot better and you sure as hell won't miss those embarrassing drunken nights.

I totally empathize with you, and wish you the best. I think you're better off cutting alcohol out of your life, at least for now. Maybe someday you'll choose to try drinking with moderation, or maybe you'll choose not to bother. But for now, it sounds like it's not doing you any good at all.
 
Pagey said:
I agree with Captain.Heroin - it sounds like you don't feel a need to drink, rather to continue drinking once you've started. If that's the case, better to avoid drinking all together for a little while, until you feel like you have a bit more control at least :)
Or maybe try to stay away from all parties/events where there'll be too much alcohol, etc. And then yes, outside help is always great. Good luck!
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I really like the highlighted portion...and the, stale sentiments of, "Just Stop!". Maybe repeat the lines from the wise ones, OutKast, where they say "oh you just cant quit, aint that a bitch" until you have simply stopped.

Sounds like you expect to have some sort of epiphany where you realize something that enables you to continue doing so. You could spend the rest of your life trying to prove to yourself that you can drink like "everyone" else, and waste yours doing so. You could also take the life of another in the process, or someone might very well shoot you in the wrong place and time, if you happened to bang on their car and accidentally hit their girlfriend with a no parking sign...
 
Been there, done that, regret that!
Drink responsibly! Alcohol, it's literally a poison.
It's such a shameful feeling when you wake up after a weekend like that.. But it happens to us all at some point, you just need to watch how fast you drink & how much.
 
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