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Fuck speedballs

jones-in_J

jones-in_J

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I just wanted to vent thiis real quick- over the last year ive smoked synthetic cannabanoids, taken percoset and kratom but none of that beats me down mentally like when i speedball

Last weekend i gave in for the first time in a long time and shot some speedballs and its wearing me the fuck down physically and emotionally after just the two or 3 days that it lasted. I wish that i never tried shooting smack or smoking crack, they can really fuck your mind and your body up. Im not looking for any ansswers here, just to vent. And for anyone here who hasnt tried coke or dope, dont fucking do it

I feel like weed can make people more loving and a sort of spuritual awakening can happen as a result of psychadelics (when not overdone cuz then they just fry your brain lol) but id argue that NOTHING good has ever come from coke or dope

Thanks to any who read
 
I agree buddy, hang in there i havent been slamming any speedballs cause im on bupe but have been getting my bell rung frequently slamming coke and it is doing nothing but stuffing me farther in the fucking gutter. i ran out of my stash a couple hours ago and feel like death would be better than this vicious heaven/hell bender cycle. my arms look like shit veins are shitting on me wasted a couple shots from blood coagulating which ends in more money pissing away.

why do we do this to ourselves :(

hang in there
 
feel for you guys,been there many times,pretty sure you already know what you need to do to change your situations,so why not just start now?haven't you been living in hell long enough?You do deserve some happiness in your lives but sometimes it 's not so easy,but you can get there if you want,best of luck to you
 
Yeah definitely slamming coke and dope together can end up in quite a mess. You do deserve to be happy, so I really suggest abstaining from speedballs as I'm sure many users on this board would recommend as well.
 
My DOC. And it takes nil time to realize it's a killer. If you're up to it, try to develop a plan to stay off - a written one you can immediately put into practice. Good luck, and it's a tough road, a road on which I still toil.
 
It sucks. I remember years ago my boy wouldn't even do his dope till he had coke. You start to get to the point where you're dependant on both and you're either puking cause youre sick or dry heaving on the way to cop that white.
 
op, i tend to agree somewhat that nothing ever good has come of coke or dope, but i feel more strongly like that about coke and less so about dope. coke is what brings you up and down so hard; dope is just bad news because of how addictive it is, although i will argue that it is much less shitty.
 
Speedballs and powerballs (meth and heroin) have permanently damaged my heart. Just an fyi
 
Serotonin101 said:
Speedballs and powerballs (meth and heroin) have permanently damaged my heart. Just an fyi
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This is what I came in here to post actually. My father died at age 43 (November 9th 2010) from speedballing and doing crank all his life, as well that the one time I overdosed was after doing speedballs one night, and my heart is damaged too. Luckily mine isn't anything severe, and I can't remember the condition they called it, but I damaged the inside lining to one of my ventricles.

Speedballs feel wonderful, but not worth the risk.
 
I ended up doing what had to be done and threw away the rest of my coke and dope and am starting to try to make positive life changes starting today.. wish me luck

Ive been on probation and clean for the most part over the last year and after experiencing how much better life is without drugs is making it a lot easier to come off of it this time around after just a weekend out on the streets... makes me wonder how i ever lived with myself doing it so long before
 
Wow Jones that's really awesome to hear. It's great to know that you're being proactive with quitting speedballs. We're here for all the support you need, PM me if you ever want or need to. It's also worth giving out NA or AA a try if you haven't already, they might not work for everyone but it's always good to try.
 
Thanks man appreciate it. Its kindof a restless night tonight coming off the smack and i feel real weak but im def not trying to go back out regardless

If we were on facebook and i didnt care if everyone on there knew my habits id probably write "like this post if you shed a small tear knowing that somewhere in a trash can there is a s quantity of coke and dope that will never be shot that youll never find" haha
 
Hehe you'd have a bunch of people searching your trashcans :D Coming off a speedball will not be easy or fun, and then the PAWS will start later on, so just do what you can. Do you plan on going cold turkey, or are you going to go meth or suboxone?
 
badfish45 said:
Hehe you'd have a bunch of people searching your trashcans :D Coming off a speedball will not be easy or fun, and then the PAWS will start later on, so just do what you can. Do you plan on going cold turkey, or are you going to go meth or suboxone?
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It wont be too bad i was only back on it for 4 days, i used to be really really really bad on them doing like $150i a day for a whole year straight so this wont be bad, it just didnt take long to regret it after i had a taste of the good life you know?

And i have percs im prescribed (just 5s but enough) and kratom for withdrawel to taper down so im golden
 
DexterMeth said:
Psychedelics don't fry your brain.. crack does.
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I agree that crack fries your brain but i think that any drug when overdone will. You cant deny that the nonsensical ramblings of someone thats done too many psychadelics doesn't show that they've done some damage to their brain. Other people in the same boat may consider it a n "opened level of awareness" or something.. but i call BS
 
Yea I speedballed for about a year then moved to powerballs then finally confronted the fact that uppers and I don't mix so ive just been doing h and honestly I feel so much better and my appearance has improved by leaps. Don't look like a bruised up shrunken fiend. My next step is to ween off the h but im not ready quite yet
 
ohshea said:
Yea I speedballed for about a year then moved to powerballs then finally confronted the fact that uppers and I don't mix so ive just been doing h and honestly I feel so much better and my appearance has improved by leaps. Don't look like a bruised up shrunken fiend. My next step is to ween off the h but im not ready quite yet
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I did the same thing, just take your time and quit when you're ready. Opiods/opiates are relatively harmless to the body in terms of physical damage. I wish everyone in this thread the best, lots of <3 from this recovering junkie
 
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