Fuck it or not, its still the same

[SuperCool]

I'm 19 and I have nothing but time on my hands.
My best friend has a girlfriend so we hang out less now.
My other friends I'm less fond of right now...
I still trust them, it's just I kinda feel like being alone lately because going out always seems the same for a long time.
All the old friends, well... Let's just say if you wanna be selling and you live in asome small town, don't expect things to be the same if you decide to stop.
It's beginning to be a routine to wake up in the evenings and all I do is watch or more like re watch series.
I'd play some games if I could my computer is too shitty for any to work.
I was hooked on md a year ago.
Lately I sometimes think about doing it again, you know, just to feel that painless.
I won't though so it's ok...
I wish something amazing suddenly occured, but nothing happens.
It seems like no matter what I say to myself it always comes back to feeling like that and the days get more and more boring.
I'm not much into anything anymore, I wonder why... Oh well

 

[Ozekat]

You've got to "throw a wrench in the works" of your life. Man, I feel the same fucking way dude, it is a tough world out there! But when we try to make things better, we've got that forward momentum and you keep trying to make things more interesting, go do something.

I know how you feel man, I'm in the same boat now.

 

[Auroric]

Sounds like you need to break the rut man, get out, find a new scene. What that means for you is your call, but for me it meant ditching most of my stuff, loading up a backpack and heading off with a rough plan of volunteering at music festivals. Something that will deeply move you in a better direction. Best wishes dood

 

[Lilunwell]

Sorry your feeling so down. Sounds like you need to get out and meet new friends and enjoy what you can rather than dwell on what you don't have. Just always remember even as tough as it is sometimes. Someone's always worse off than you so be thankful for that. Good luck!!

 

[PriestTheyCalledHim]

Sorry your feeling so down. Sounds like you need to get out and meet new friends and enjoy what you can rather than dwell on what you don't have. Just always remember even as tough as it is sometimes. Someone's always worse off than you so be thankful for that. Good luck!!

This. Get out around people and meet new people. Or do something different that you've always been interested in but haven't done yet. Also talking to a doctor, psychologist, or even counselor can help.

 

[Lilunwell]

Ever thought of talking to a dr or psych? It's not always a bad thing to do. After all I'm almost certain they have dealt with issues similar to yours before. Just a thought...

 

[Captain.Heroin]

I wish something amazing suddenly occured, but nothing happens.
It seems like no matter what I say to myself it always comes back to feeling like that and the days get more and more boring.
I'm not much into anything anymore, I wonder why... Oh well

Sounds like you are suffering from depression. I am sorry and I hope you feel better in time.

 

[RobotRipping]

yeah you're 19 and sound it; sorry most of those are petty problems compared to the rest of the people in this world, keep that in mind.

You'll grow out of it.

 

[ugly]

I'm 19 and I have nothing but time on my hands.
My best friend has a girlfriend so we hang out less now.
My other friends I'm less fond of right now...
I still trust them, it's just I kinda feel like being alone lately because going out always seems the same for a long time.
All the old friends, well... Let's just say if you wanna be selling and you live in asome small town, don't expect things to be the same if you decide to stop.
It's beginning to be a routine to wake up in the evenings and all I do is watch or more like re watch series.
I'd play some games if I could my computer is too shitty for any to work.
I was hooked on md a year ago.
Lately I sometimes think about doing it again, you know, just to feel that painless.
I won't though so it's ok...
I wish something amazing suddenly occured, but nothing happens.
It seems like no matter what I say to myself it always comes back to feeling like that and the days get more and more boring.
I'm not much into anything anymore, I wonder why... Oh well

I love this post. The writing is very fluid. It reads almost like a poem. Each line could almost be next chapter in a book.

My best friend has a girlfriend so we hang out less now.
My other friends I'm less fond of right now...

The best friends character and history neatly detailed and dovetailing into why him having a girlfriend has changed things. The girlfriend of course. Flesh out the character in a manner that lets the reader know whether or not to like her.

Lately I sometimes think about doing it again, you know, just to feel that painless.
I won't though so it's ok...

I'd have a whole section on drug addiction and your experience, if any, with it. All the bestsellers have a drug element.

It seems like no matter what I say to myself it always comes back to feeling like that and the days get more and more boring.
I'm not much into anything anymore, I wonder why... Oh well

This is where something amazing occurs. In your imagination. Write it down. Use the same brevity and lonesomeness but create amazing with words.

People might laugh at the suggestion but Twilight made megamillions and the humble beginnings were similar to the OPs post.

 

[grumpygrouse]

I might want to point out that most of the suggestions here are almost the same ones I have offered you.
But it's okay if you feel not ready yet and maybe you can break this rut with something or someone awesome without all the backpacking and traveling and seeing the world or whatever, but you can not put all your cards on that. You must take some action yourself, even tiny steps are better than reruns.