fuck it all

I have written in this damn box like 4 fucking times, long posts on how fucking angry i am, how fucking pathetic I feel, how fucking used and abused i feel, how i feel like a fucking inconvience in fucking life to everyone. A long fucking post, really they were. Everytime I go to post my fucking internet fucking dies, so fuck it.

I am so sick of fucking crying about it all, so fucking sick of be angry all the fucking time, so fucking tired of fucking everything.

Maybe I'll just get into his pill stash and swallow em all and fuck you all. Maybe I'll just stick on 4 fent patches too. who the fuck would care really? no one.

Just one big fucking inconvience, one big fucking burden, just a fucking pathetic person who is nothing but a worthless fucking emo girl that means fuck all to anyone.

Just some kind of cum dumpster, some kind of fuck and use and abuse or just fucking ignore. I'm just some fucking fucked up idiot who has done stupid fucking shit and is a worthless fucking welfare case. HELL i can't even call myself a welfare case cause even THEY don't want me, and no fucking job wants me. Yeah I'm such a fucking win at life.

Just a fucking waste of space.

Its always fucking roundabout with fucking EVERYONE.....

YOU LIKE ME, YOU HATE ME
YOU LOVE ME, YOU HATE ME
YOU LOVE ME, YOU IGNORE ME
YOU LOVE ME, YOU YELL AT ME
YOU LIKE ME, IM A FUCKING ANOYANCE

why do I fucking even bother with anything? why?! someone fucking tell me why!

You don't like me, just fucking tell me and that'll be it. Don't fucking like me, love me, make me love you then just pull a 360 and don't give a fuck.

Fuck you T, fuck you big time. No I don't love you. No you don't love me, I am just something that you settled for because you thought you couldn;t do any better..... don;t fucking forget that.

No one fucking loves me, don't fucking pretend motherfuckers cause it just fucking annoys me.

I am so sick of the anger, it has made me bitter now. You fucking love that though dont you? I am now just some bitter old hag that ain't worth a shit.

Yeah, I'm just some whore. You know it takes FUCKING to be a whore, but you believe what you want. Don't fucking lie and say you don;t fucking think I am a whore, I can see it all the time. I'm not fucking stupid.

Oh wait, apparently I am.

Why would I think that anyone gave a shit....

I could be bawling, on my knees at your feet bawling, begging just to be held, just to fucking feel wanted to feel like something after being so totally fucking ruined in life and no one gives a shit.

Hell my fucking kids don't even fucking care, they fucking said so themselves.

The person that i was fucking hoping to fucking care just a little *laughs hystarically*. Yeah ok. How can someone care when they won't even TOUCH you.

There is so much I wanna say on that matter but I don't want to cry anymore.

Fuck you all. Fuck everything. No more fucking giving a shit.

I no longer believe fuck all, more so when you say you love me and don;t fucking mean it. How fucking nice really.

I don't believe in LOVE anymore.
I don't believe in Friends anymore.
I don;t believe in Family anymore.

Fuck it all.

No this is not all about YOU, its not about ANYONE but ME.

Maybe I'll just go chew up all T's pills, there's enough to kill a 3rd world country in my kitchen.

Maybe I'll just stick 4 fent. patches on and just say fuck the world.

yeah....maybe....

 

Stay with us, man. People DO suck most of the time but sometimes on that rare occasion someone of worth pops in and its pretty cool.

Many of us here can relate to that raw, intense anger and hatred. It sucks and its draining but can be necessary sometimes for that PAINFUL growth.

Please don't hurt yourself. Like you said, fuck EVERYONE and take some time for you. That, in itself, can be real uncomfortable, but (for me) is also necessary in order to see the real self

 

life sucks get high. thats all i can say that and a dead body is much more of a waste of space. at least in my opinion you think too much about other people be selfish just dont die doing it

 

Yeah, I had my heart officially broken tonight for the last time. I want to kill myself or someone else, but I know I just have to focus on myself because I am the only person who can make my life what I want it to be, plus the law of attraction is such that when you reach your fullest love and respect yourself, you will find your truest love. I don't know if I believe in true love, except for yourself, but I guess if my current relationship improves I decide to try another relationship, I'll know better then.