*** copied from BL journal ***
Still feelin' like a piece of shit but haven't thought seriously of suicide yesterday and today.
I was lookin' forward to moving back east but now I am dreading being near my folks. I'd much rather sell my house, take the profits and just disappear from my family. Fuck them! Bustin' my balls over the stupidest shit. I can understand them causing grief for the all the shit my drug use has caused. I get that. If you're going to bitch about something as stupid as not having taken a cabinet off a wall than you gotta go fuck yourself.
I would love to just cut off all contact with family. They've been a crutch for me. I'm thinkin that I can manage without them. It'll be tough at first but worth it in the end.
Still feelin' like a piece of shit but haven't thought seriously of suicide yesterday and today.
I was lookin' forward to moving back east but now I am dreading being near my folks. I'd much rather sell my house, take the profits and just disappear from my family. Fuck them! Bustin' my balls over the stupidest shit. I can understand them causing grief for the all the shit my drug use has caused. I get that. If you're going to bitch about something as stupid as not having taken a cabinet off a wall than you gotta go fuck yourself.
I would love to just cut off all contact with family. They've been a crutch for me. I'm thinkin that I can manage without them. It'll be tough at first but worth it in the end.