frustrated thoughts on you...

[yoUr bLiSS]

your words of praise are flattering...
yet they spill forth from your mouth far too often..
and far too easily to be genuine....
you say you are blessed...
you thank me for coming into your life...
yet what do you know about my life or my thoughts that i haven't offered of my own accord???...
i bare my soul to you voluntarily on a weekly basis ...
so tell me... what do you know about my feelings that i haven't unleashed foolishly upon your lap??? (or your computer screen for that matter)
and in a brilliant moment of bliss and clarity that only a clouded mind could conjure up..
i gave you a glimpse of my soul...
a bold moment of intoxication...
an intoxicated moment of boldness...
i've told you everything..
you've told me nothing..
yet you speak so highly of me..
you turn me into an angel...
for others to see and admire..
and yet,
you've never asked,
you've never wondered...
you've never offered...
yet i am still hanging around...
feeding your hungry you ego...
just a little "groupie"
but so much more than just....
fuck all that bullshit about how "supportive" i am and how much it means to "have me in your life"
i think you are intimidated by my honesty...
afraid of my emotion, my boldness,
my darkness, my purity...
i hold nothing back,
and that is what you hide from..
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how much more can we use it up?
drink it dry?
take this drug?
looking for something forever gone
but something
we will always want?
-the cure
[This message has been edited by yoUr bLiSS (edited 22 November 2001).]

 

[yoUr bLiSS]

i am replying to myself for no one else has...i guess no one replies to my posts here in words because usually i just post rambling thoughts that only the person involved would understand...but i don't really post in words for a reply, i post for a release...just getting these thoughts out into the open helps...
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how much more can we use it up?
drink it dry?
take this drug?
looking for something forever gone
but something
we will always want?
-the cure

 

[E-girl]

i know where you are coming from. i know what its like when you pour your heart out to someone and they barely acknowledge it. so i've stopped doing that.
but you know what.... i dont think it really goes unnoticed. i think its just harder for some people to show their emotions. i like to think that, at least.
my thoughts are usually frustrated for the same reasons. but hang in there...
((((((Hug))))))
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
"...there are 2 paths, you can go back, but in the long run... there's still time to change the road you're on..."

 

[yoUr bLiSS]

oohhh! E-girl thank you for the hugs at the end! that's the first time i've gotten hugs!

 

[Noodle]

Yeah, nice words. I was at the edge of my seat just teetering....stoned here as well...trying to slow...to sleep...a nap...away now.
It takes some time to work up the courage for a reply on this end.
I know I accept any and all replies gladly, simply for the recognition, and social interaction, as convoluted as this medium is.

I'm afraid my replies are often missunderstood and are unwelcome, for whatever reason.
Blah, blah, blah...
...don't mean to bore.