somedud
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Ok quick synopsis, MDMA use/abuse induced depressive states, loss of emotions, hard time reading/relating to people, and loss intellect (memory/learning problems, minor speech problems and can't express myself/thoughts clearly). Somewhat zombieish.
Now, I've read many articles relating to BDNF gene expression, and it's immense reparative properties, most intriguingly in the frontal lobes.
Here's one study, showing immense repair after a almost complete destruction of the 5 HT network from a neurotoxic regimen of PCA.
Source: http://www.jneurosci.org/content/20/2/771.full.pdf
My aim, of course is to repair/relieve the damage/symptoms caused by my (ab)use.
This is where I need a hand, if you folks don't mind lending one. Accordingly to many theories, SSRIs have shown to emit their antidepressive effects long after synaptic levels of 5 HT have been accomplished. This is due to the "rewiring" (denser axonal networks) of key areas of the brain involved in thinking and emotions, which is proposed to be due to increase/decrease in 5 HT, which increases the BDNF expression in depressed patients, which modulates cyclic AMP signaling, which in itself is very reparative.
Ive heard ALOT of praise about Tianeptine and it's neuroprotective, memory enchacing and regenerative properties, along with minimal reports of side effects. Aswell, it's been linked to raised serum BDNF levels, which is what I'm looking for. It's also been shown to have an up-regulating effect on 5 HT receptors.
On the contray, I've read much about St johns wort upregulating 5ht1a and 5ht2a receptors. Currently I'm 2 weeks into treatment, with no effect.
In your opinion, which would be the smartest way to go about recovery/repair, and spiking BDNF levels? Unfortunately none of the studies I've read have shown a measurement of exactly how much BDNF is increased, leaving me to guess if you will.
My goal, is the best remission of these symptoms, with a stable mood, along with no debilitating side effects. I MAINLY want to be able to feel emotions again, especially when it comes to my friends, I literally have none, I'm FLAT.
I've read much about SSRIs and MDMA induced depression being contradicted, and slowing/stoping recovery, which I don't understand, because it seems to spike bdnf levels and induce axonal sprouting in regions MDMA damages.
During this time, and currently I'm taking curcumin, with other nootropics and daily exercise.
Someone, please, give me some insight, I REALLY don't want to fuck this thing up, I've only got 3 months til school, and can't complete it in this state.
P.S. For whom this may concern, my period of use was 1-2 pills a night, 11 times in 3 1/2 months.
Now, I've read many articles relating to BDNF gene expression, and it's immense reparative properties, most intriguingly in the frontal lobes.
Here's one study, showing immense repair after a almost complete destruction of the 5 HT network from a neurotoxic regimen of PCA.
Source: http://www.jneurosci.org/content/20/2/771.full.pdf
My aim, of course is to repair/relieve the damage/symptoms caused by my (ab)use.
This is where I need a hand, if you folks don't mind lending one. Accordingly to many theories, SSRIs have shown to emit their antidepressive effects long after synaptic levels of 5 HT have been accomplished. This is due to the "rewiring" (denser axonal networks) of key areas of the brain involved in thinking and emotions, which is proposed to be due to increase/decrease in 5 HT, which increases the BDNF expression in depressed patients, which modulates cyclic AMP signaling, which in itself is very reparative.
Ive heard ALOT of praise about Tianeptine and it's neuroprotective, memory enchacing and regenerative properties, along with minimal reports of side effects. Aswell, it's been linked to raised serum BDNF levels, which is what I'm looking for. It's also been shown to have an up-regulating effect on 5 HT receptors.
On the contray, I've read much about St johns wort upregulating 5ht1a and 5ht2a receptors. Currently I'm 2 weeks into treatment, with no effect.
In your opinion, which would be the smartest way to go about recovery/repair, and spiking BDNF levels? Unfortunately none of the studies I've read have shown a measurement of exactly how much BDNF is increased, leaving me to guess if you will.
My goal, is the best remission of these symptoms, with a stable mood, along with no debilitating side effects. I MAINLY want to be able to feel emotions again, especially when it comes to my friends, I literally have none, I'm FLAT.
I've read much about SSRIs and MDMA induced depression being contradicted, and slowing/stoping recovery, which I don't understand, because it seems to spike bdnf levels and induce axonal sprouting in regions MDMA damages.
During this time, and currently I'm taking curcumin, with other nootropics and daily exercise.
Someone, please, give me some insight, I REALLY don't want to fuck this thing up, I've only got 3 months til school, and can't complete it in this state.
P.S. For whom this may concern, my period of use was 1-2 pills a night, 11 times in 3 1/2 months.
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i know how you feel though. the depression...sucks fucking balllsssss. do you have anxiety too?