yoUr bLiSS
Bluelighter
strange yet comforting
midnight and i'm coming home
as opposed to coming up
ironically
it seems that by losing my mind
last weekend
i have finally found my head
yesterday i bought an ice-cream cone
double scoop
sugar cone
it used to be called thrifty's
i sat on a bench
amused
content
lazily observnig passerbyers
today i bought fresh flowers
dark purple almost black
$2.99 at albertsons
i've never bought myself flowers
i rediscovered music
porno for pyros
joan osborne
smashing pumpkins
a few of my old favorites
back when music took me
where drugs do now
i saw a movie tonight
had a strawberry margarita
in a busy restaurant
typical saturday night
of "normal folk"
i'm finally feeding my soul
as opposed to stuffing my ego
gorging on excess
gagging on selfish matter
i had forgotten
my favorite indulgence
the self-deserving pleasure
of sleeping in saturday morning
am i just waking up???
or am i still awake???
waking up
going back to sleep
chasing the tail
of that lingering dream
not only did i spend
quality time with the cat
i spent quality time with myself
bonding with a girl
i haven't seen in awhile
self-medication
no longer appealing
now basking in the warmth
of self-awakening
realization has spurned transformation
darkness to creation
regret to knowledge
pain to acceptance
silly girl
your spirits not broken
you have not broken me
you have woken it up
shocked it out of hibernation
where it lay dormant for years
clouded and stale
jaded and worn
inviting me in to your world
what you deem a disaster
of catastrophic proportions
a tragic flaw
a mistake
a momentary lapse
of your immpecable judgement
when you see me
you see a lunatic
and so it shall remain
i like it that way
you have served your purpose
you shall never truly know
the full impact
your fleeting presence
has left behind
energy would be wasted
on something unworthy
to show you any different....
[ 11 August 2002: Message edited by: yoUr bLiSS ]
midnight and i'm coming home
as opposed to coming up
ironically
it seems that by losing my mind
last weekend
i have finally found my head
yesterday i bought an ice-cream cone
double scoop
sugar cone
it used to be called thrifty's
i sat on a bench
amused
content
lazily observnig passerbyers
today i bought fresh flowers
dark purple almost black
$2.99 at albertsons
i've never bought myself flowers
i rediscovered music
porno for pyros
joan osborne
smashing pumpkins
a few of my old favorites
back when music took me
where drugs do now
i saw a movie tonight
had a strawberry margarita
in a busy restaurant
typical saturday night
of "normal folk"
i'm finally feeding my soul
as opposed to stuffing my ego
gorging on excess
gagging on selfish matter
i had forgotten
my favorite indulgence
the self-deserving pleasure
of sleeping in saturday morning
am i just waking up???
or am i still awake???
waking up
going back to sleep
chasing the tail
of that lingering dream
not only did i spend
quality time with the cat
i spent quality time with myself
bonding with a girl
i haven't seen in awhile
self-medication
no longer appealing
now basking in the warmth
of self-awakening
realization has spurned transformation
darkness to creation
regret to knowledge
pain to acceptance
silly girl
your spirits not broken
you have not broken me
you have woken it up
shocked it out of hibernation
where it lay dormant for years
clouded and stale
jaded and worn
inviting me in to your world
what you deem a disaster
of catastrophic proportions
a tragic flaw
a mistake
a momentary lapse
of your immpecable judgement
when you see me
you see a lunatic
and so it shall remain
i like it that way
you have served your purpose
you shall never truly know
the full impact
your fleeting presence
has left behind
energy would be wasted
on something unworthy
to show you any different....
[ 11 August 2002: Message edited by: yoUr bLiSS ]
