Cosmic Mist
Bluelighter
She is one of those people who smiles, and when she smiles the whole world seems to light up around her. She blinks, and for a fraction of a section the whole world disappears. Watching her, i can see that she takes in her surroundings with care, and observes all that passes around her. She breathes life into everything she touches, and shines her light for all to see.
Watching her fills me with a feeling i have not felt before; a soft, sad longing that builds within me, filling me up to breaking point. She smiles and i feel as though i will melt into a mess on the floor - my innermost self exposed for all to see. It takes everything i have to contain myself, to remain calm and reserved. She makes me feel as if nothing else matters, as though the world could implode around us, and just knowing that she has been a part of my life would make everything ok.
It goes beyond lust or bodily desire - she seems to be the sort of person who would always be there for you, someone who does not judge without good reason. I never thought i would find someone like her in my lifetime - i thought i had had my fill of special people. Meeting her was a blessing i did not full appreciate until i found out she was leaving.
I always thought that i would have her close to me, but life has a funny way of changing these things. We always take things for granted until it is too late and they are ripped from us. I have had several chances to express myself to her, but it has never been appropriate - life circumstances being how they are, it would not be fair on anyone concerned.
That doesn't stop me longing for her though, wishing to share her warmth and bask in the light she shines around her. As she moves on to a new phase in her life, i know that she will find someone who makes her happy. She deserves so much more than anyone can give her. I only hope that they realise how special she really is, and that she should be cherished.
Regardless of what she does in life, no matter where she goes or who she chooses to be with, i hope that she finds happiness. Knowing that she has found a path that gives her clarity and helps her to find true happiness - that is enough for me. I will continue to watch her from afar, admiring her, and knowing that if nothing else, we'll always be friends...
Watching her fills me with a feeling i have not felt before; a soft, sad longing that builds within me, filling me up to breaking point. She smiles and i feel as though i will melt into a mess on the floor - my innermost self exposed for all to see. It takes everything i have to contain myself, to remain calm and reserved. She makes me feel as if nothing else matters, as though the world could implode around us, and just knowing that she has been a part of my life would make everything ok.
It goes beyond lust or bodily desire - she seems to be the sort of person who would always be there for you, someone who does not judge without good reason. I never thought i would find someone like her in my lifetime - i thought i had had my fill of special people. Meeting her was a blessing i did not full appreciate until i found out she was leaving.
I always thought that i would have her close to me, but life has a funny way of changing these things. We always take things for granted until it is too late and they are ripped from us. I have had several chances to express myself to her, but it has never been appropriate - life circumstances being how they are, it would not be fair on anyone concerned.
That doesn't stop me longing for her though, wishing to share her warmth and bask in the light she shines around her. As she moves on to a new phase in her life, i know that she will find someone who makes her happy. She deserves so much more than anyone can give her. I only hope that they realise how special she really is, and that she should be cherished.
Regardless of what she does in life, no matter where she goes or who she chooses to be with, i hope that she finds happiness. Knowing that she has found a path that gives her clarity and helps her to find true happiness - that is enough for me. I will continue to watch her from afar, admiring her, and knowing that if nothing else, we'll always be friends...
