Well its Friday and I have no plans or friends damn when did I become such a loser? I have decided to break out the phenazepam and meet some people so im gonna get all kinds of screwed then go to the bar what could go wrong? It seems like drugs are just not making me happy anymore which scares the shit out of me because if I cant find artificial happyness I feel like I have no chance at true happyness. Its bullshit deppression is killing me I feel like I really need some uppers like meth or mdpv to balance me out. I tryed ordering some MDPV off the net but my credit card was declined sucks.
Yea that is pretty true dave. I actually had a great night I took some extracted benzedrex with the phenazepam walked to the only bar within walking distance of campus but it didnt open for another 2 hours!!!! Said fuck it walked back to my dorm outside I see this dude smoking a cig then the most amazing thing happened. I had the courage to speak it was amazing me and this dude had a 2 hour conversation we had much in common it was great especially on the speed. We then went and drank some beers and smoked some bud and he promised to introduce me to some like minded people today. So yea last night was a good night.