i wish 1/19 was April Fools day. I managed to get furthest through my day before crying about you. You were still one of the first things i thought of this AM though. My heart is so heavy, it weighs a ton. the rest of me is having a hard time dragging it around. dragging isn't quite what i mean, but close. i've actually got a stages of grief sheet. i know you're familiar with those through your work as a social worker. i'm sure stuck in it. that cycle. but today was a good sign. i was sad but it didn't engulf me. it sure has, though, other times. prolly write more later, baby. i love and miss you!
