Cocaine Freebase coke need some hope

[ceceelektrika]

Afternoon bluelighters

Bin on this for almost a year now and am starting to worry Part of me doesn't want to quit and hates this fucking planet and the state of the world and thinks fuck it stay high but at the same time I am smart enough to know that this particular drug will make my life so much more miserable than it has to be. I can't control the absurdity of late stage capitalism but I can control how I conduct myself, if I'm prepared to admit I'm totally not in control right now.

I know the steps I'm gonna have to take to sort this out, I guess what I'm looking for right now is some stories of hope from people who have recovered and found their lives are better without it. I don't want to end up on the streets because I've let addiction eat me alive. Either that or someone in the same situation so I don't feel so alone.

I still find it fun. But I can see the trajectory and I know it won't stay this way. I'm a poly addict so have a lot of shit to sort out. At least it's warm where I live so if I do end up on the streets I won't be freezing

Thanks in advance, really need even just a shred of hope

 

[ageingpartyfiend]

The part of you that doesn't want to quit is the addict part. The rest of you is fully aware that this is a truly shit and ultimately pointless, useless and super-destructive drug.

Plenty of people including myself have quit and I'd imagine the percentage of those (those who are still able to think clearly anyway and be honest) who think that quitting has improved their life would be closing on 100%

There's plenty of hope. It's a cunt of a drug but quitting is clearly doable. There's not any one path to doing so, but you need to be ready and want to do it. The main thing is to just stop asap - there will never be an easier moment to do so than right now (or, if you're on the sesh, when your stash has finished). All best wishes to you, do yourself a massive favour and put it in the past

 

[Biomed Tech Guy]

I can't believe the time, years, relationships, money, property, jobs, opportunities I WASTED chasing that high, but I also felt like either it wasn't that bad or it was worth what I was doing behind it.
I did some crazy shit too. I saw others do even crazier shit.
Then all of a sudden "POOF" the desire that drove me to have my life revolve around that drug vanished, and I have to thank God for it. It's the only explanation I can give.
I'll add, once I thought I had escaped I went back to it. Don't beat yourself up, but keep asking for help. The last time I escaped that vicious drug was the last time I did it, 20 years ago, and I know I'm not going back.