I'll be honest, I've done everything mentioned in this thread and much worse to my family. It was a long road to get back in their good graces and I'm lucky to have such forgiving people in my life.
I'm pretty sure you're gonna do you regardless of what any anonymous username on Bluelight tells you, I just felt a little obligated to warn you about the possible path you're wandering down. For me, it started out with a few dollars, then alcohol, prescriptions, nugs, and ended with what would've been a felony theft had they called the police on me. I mean, I've been there and it's not the right thing to do... I might be hypocritical but that doesn't mean I'm not being truthful right now.
I appreciate your warning, but please refer back to what I had said earlier about never lying to my parents or taking anything from them. I agree with what you are saying 100% and am happy to hear that you can acknowledge your wrong doings and move forward. I am all too familiar with the slippery slope of lies and thievery; my brother is an ex-meth addict and stole thousands of dollars from my parents. He would take expensive items and abundant amounts of money from my mom's wallet. He knew that our family was aware of what he was doing, but that didn't stop him from doing what he did. On top of all of this, he is extremely bipolar and has punched holes in our walls/doors, threatened to harm me, my sister, and my dad (but never my mom) when he was on a rampage. The only way to prevent him from doing any of this was to call the cops and have him put in jail...needless to say, he spent a lot of time behind bars for various reasons. I was once terrified of him and I cannot tell you how many times I have locked myself in my room to hide from him and make panicked, tear-filled calls to my parents for help. I feel so bad for my mom, she's been through hell and back with my brother and even got punched in the face once by another man when trying to break up a fight between my brother and some men who threw a snowball at my mom's car while they were driving around.
Anyway, enough of that. I have respect for my parents. I love them with all of my heart and my mom is hands down my best friend, I can come to her with anything. I even told her that I had taken some of my dad's stash and she was okay with it. She's heard the way my dad speaks to me and treats me and she dislikes the fact that he smokes marijuana; it puts him in weird nit-picky moods. I did feel bad shortly after I had taken it, but that feeling is long forgotten. I don't think I'll take any ever again, but I don't regret taking what I did. He's always rifling through my belongings in search for something to bust me on even though I've never given him any reason to doubt my well-being and responsibility.
Aside from steeling a tiny bit of my dad's pot, I used to steal cigarettes from my mom when I was a sophomore in high school. Not many, but some. I justified it by telling myself that it was better me than her; I don't like her smoking. I do realize that it was bad now and haven't taken anything else from her for years (well, aside from "borrowing" a tube of mascara or a shirt occasionally, they sometimes don't make it back to her room but I ask before I take them).
Sorry for the essay, I just want to get the point across that I
do understand what you're saying, and I agree with it. Although I think that your words may not apply to me, I'm glad that they have been said because I'm sure there are other Bluelighters who will see them and may need some guidance in this particular field. Thanks Jibult.
P.S. My brother and I are now fairly close. He has resolved a lot of his emotional issues and is now a functioning member of society with a long-term love interest, a home of his own, and a baby on the way. As a matter of fact, I'm going over to his place to spend the night tonight because my parents are out of town and I'm terrified of being home alone--we live in the middle of nowhere with lots of woods and our neighbors aren't close by. I think what made us truly connect was weed, and he's very generous with it.
