forward/back

[Shuddr2Think]

i decided today
that walking forward
is easier
than looking back
at you...
watching me...
watching myself.
i feel numb to this whole
messed up
situation
i wish i could see
what it is
you don't see in me..
pain would bring release...
closure...
a finale to this
symphony of back and
forth
words
looks
moments...
pick up the pace...
chose the tune
make up your mind...
mixed words make
mixed feelings for you
and
i
can't
listen...
your voice
brings an ache to my
life
my heart...
i would stop time
if only to
know...
what is behind
you.
tell me your story...
and i promise to listen...

 

[PoppE]

We longed for closure and we both wanted to know this way or that, we were both so tired of each others mixed up feelings. It was a choice of it's over for good or we're in it forever and at this point in our lives forever was too much to ask.
Last night was our finale and it was so much harder to say good-bye than what I thought. But nothing is set in concrete and may be years down the track who knows.
Excuse my ramblings.
Let hope float and it will.