forgotten

[DJmikaMC]

i'd almost forgotten what it feels like

to be here without really being here; to be seen without anyone seeing me; to inhabit this body without any connection to it; am i really behind this mask? do i exist? is this mask who i am? without it who would i be? by mask i dont mean masquerade, i mean personality. do i have one? do i have five? which one is in control? which one is me? is there a me? are they all me? who am i with laziness and this internal dialogue resounding conflict; conflict inside that makes me feel unreal, but only seen as a figure, represented by this body that i would have never chosen...this thing i despise is how i am presented to the world...i can not present what is inside because i do not understand it...for some reason i think it hasnt always been like this..things used to be different, but now it is over.

i'd almost forgotten what it feels like; what it feels like to be a person

i have forgotten what it is to be real

 

[SnowFrog]

i here ya

 

[mr_fluffy]

life is cycles. what once was will be again. don't give up hope, and don't be foolish enough to think that this is how it will be forever. hang in there, never, ever give up.

*hugs*

 

[PsychoKitten]

this strikes a chord in me, so often i wonder... am I good, am I bad, is this real or merely an illusion... these are words that often repeat inside my mind. Some days I feel like I've lost myself... but it always cycles back through soon enough. Like fluffy said, hang in there.

Lovely work.