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[SineWaveSoldier]

This was posted by me in words already..
But I wrote this when I was suicidal and hurting. I made it through and I think this poem I wrote is suitable here at TDS as some may not see it there. I feel like sharing this would help people in this forum.
But close the thread if u see fit I won't mind.

Sometimes

Sometimes I want to run and hide
Sometimes I want to step outside
From who I am and where I've been
To start this life over again

Sometimes I want to change it all
Sometimes I want to end it all
To not remember
To not recall

Sometimes I want to break this shell
This fragile world this secret hell
Walk away leave it behind
Leave it behind.....

Im not as strong as they may have thought
I can't pretend Im not distrought
I never asked for much at all
I never wanted to take this fall

I can keep walking but I can't run
I can't hide from what I've become
Ill carry this long as I can
See where it takes me, see where I am

Don't cry for me when I have left
Or take the pain I tried to shed
If just one soul is saved instead
It is worth all I've done and said

Don't take the path I decided to take
Or ignore the laws I decided to break
Don't listen to others when they say
To follow them; go your own way

When I leave I'll still be here
Still be around, Ill still be near
Even if my voice you cannot hear
Ill still be there that much is clear

If I leave not far Ill go
I'll be that angel always in tow
Ill be the knowledge that you should know
The light that shows you where to go

 

[SineWaveSoldier]

If u feel like this please, think if my family read that afterwards. So senseless suicide hurts you are worth it. I have been through hell, and am making it back. I was the worst kind of junkie and people in my life are glad to have me getting better and still on this earth. I guarantee someone feels the same for u.
I do if noone else.

 

[T. Calderone]

I'm glad you put it here because I don't usually go to that forum.

That was terrific and made me cry a bit. But want to cry a bit less. Thanks, you're beautiful.

 

[SineWaveSoldier]

I'm glad you put it here because I don't usually go to that forum.

That was terrific and made me cry a bit. But want to cry a bit less. Thanks, you're beautiful.

Thank you I'm very glad. This is what makes my spirit fulfilled. I love and was put here to help people and try to follow a good natured path.
Sure I falter but I'm only human. Its never too late to change though. Even a little bit at a time.

I'm going through some rough times right now a little too so I'll pray for you guys and you pray for me. To whomever you wish to pray. We're all in this together guys.

 

[SineWaveSoldier]

I'm bipolar and totally manic insomniac mode right now. I cleaned my whole house today and did 4 loads of laundry lol

 

[panic in paradise]

thanks for sharing that here, i hadnt noticed it in Words as a regular there meself.


i am glad to see you chose not to take your life, and have since re-initiated previous creative process', began writing, and feeling more confident to share; even though you are being a bit of a rebel about it. of course we falter, and make foolish choices but hopefully come out a little wiser in the end, with our decision making skills.

not being given more then you can handle(as the saying goes) can mean a lot, if it was an intense situation to handled.

 

[Sepher]

I have been through hell, and am making it back. I was the worst kind of junkie and people in my life are glad to have me getting better and still on this earth. I guarantee someone feels the same for u. I do if noone else.

Very much ^this^. Been there too, got that t-shirt. Only just managing to discard the well worn second version I put on after I threw off the first. Even at my lowest noone wished me anywhere other than walking the face of this earth and well. The first time round they were so glad to have me back, so sad to see me go back there. Now I'm getting there again the joy in their life, and mine is beyond measure. It's worth sticking around just to have the possibility of such joy, for the very possibility ceases to exist the moment we do. Hope is vital, as I'm finding, even if it's only the hope others have for us, invest in us, and keep safe on our behalf for us until we're able to find it for ourselves.

And very ^much^ this also. I have found that this is true of some others I know in my own life. I am aiming to make the person described here me. So far, I believe I am, at last, beginning to succeed there to some small degree!

Thanks for the post SWS. I'm glad the person your poem describes is no longer you!

 

[tripnotyzm]

I am so glad you made it through to pass on that heart felt poem.
There are some excellent words in there, well done.
But just one question; what's with the name on the thread?
Do not be sorry for sharing this captivating passage with us
Peace!

 

[SineWaveSoldier]

I am so glad you made it through to pass on that heart felt poem.
There are some excellent words in there, well done.
But just one question; what's with the name on the thread?
Do not be sorry for sharing this captivating passage with us
Peace!

Thank you. Thread title was because I posted it in another forum but felt we need it here.

 

[tripnotyzm]

Ah yes, yes.
Well, its all good
Feel free to share any of your poems with us

 

[SineWaveSoldier]

I will. Probably tomorrow. Thank you guys for feeling it. Means a lot.

 

[herbavore]

I read both of the poems you posted in Words, Sine, and just commented over there but what I really wanted to comment on here was how much I like the photo of the page. That is so beautiful--with the dark shadows on the edges. Of course i like the words, too, and could not agree more but I love the way the photo came out visually.