forever

[ever-lasting]

I remember...
when I used to love my life
when I could find peace in the little details
when I didn't worry so much
when I didn't know there was so much pain out there
when I didn't feel so alone
when I didn't think about the past
when I didn't worry about the future
when I wanted to be 22
when I felt passion
when I felt beautiful
when I felt alive
when I was a kid
when I had dreams
when I knew you were thinking about me.
I remember...
when you loved me...I know you loved me
when you smiled because of me
when you planned your life around me
when you missed me
when you said you wouldn't leave..
I wish I could let you go...move on with my life...have a life.
I wish there was a simple way out of this horrible pain... make it go away ...god make it go away... the reason why I stayed longer than I should have with you was because I didn't want to go through nights like this one... not because I was happy...just because I didnt want to be even more miserable... I know that you are gone now.. that the person I knew has changed and therefore there is nothing I can do to make it good again, this is the thought that kills me, you are gone... there is a new you, someone I dont know
...I wish I had known "forever" was a joke...

 

[Furnace]

This night will pass, and there will be better ones. Trust me.

 

[Traumatizd4life]

ow..pain..memories...damn...beautiful but oh so sad