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Forced CT of 20mg Flubromazolam, 10mg Clonazolam, 10mg Etizolam Daily

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Stotched

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So I dug myself in a pretty deep hole as the title suggests. I got arrested, and am being forced to undergo a cold turkey from this, or end up doing it in jail.

The jail didn't believe in such a thing as "designer benzos", and I had 4 seizures in the 10 days between my arrest and when I bonded out. Each time they'd give me a shot of ativan, and a few librium (chlordiazepoxide) pills at night when I came out of my seizure.

I actually had a grand mal while in there. I'm labeled as a drug seeker on my medical file and neither of the hospitals in my city believe me either. I feel very Ill, and haven't slept in the 3 days since I've been out. I cannot show up dirty in urine or I'll have to do this ct in jail instead of home. What exactly can I do to help myself. I do not mind being sick, I am just terrified of having another seizure.

My girlfriend and father have been alternating keeping watch over me in case I do. I've kicked suboxone, but this is a whole other beast. Am I fucked? How long should I expect to be sick for? I know I have no one to blame but myself, but the jail threw away my legitimate librium prescription I had on me at the time of arrest, and that was my last hope. I'm pretty much preparing myself for death.
 
Go to a hospital dude. Like, now.

This is not something you should be doing without medical supervision.
 
this is absolutely shocking. you have to go to the hospital, maybe with a print-out of the website you bought them off and the drug descriptions on the site. or if you have a phone with the net, show the doc some vendor sites, wikipedia articles and show him some of the rc benzo threads on here.

you'd have to be pretty determined to have created hundreds of fake vendor sites and invented new benzos to get a few diazepam from a hospital. you have to convince them or youre in danger of more seizures for sure. these doses are ridiculous.
 
I can try, but they already gave me librium and diazepam the day of my arrest. I actually got charged with 2 counts of terroristic threat, because I went to the hospital trying to get detoxed and the doctor gave me scripts, but also called the police saying I was delirious and making threats. At the time of my arrest I had a months worth of each, but the jail chucked them. My charges all stem from realizing how deep I was and trying to get help after the seizures started. Day 4 now, find myself just crashing with vivid nightmares in 10 minute spurts.
 
Just got back from the er. My dad had printouts and receipts from the sites I was buying from. They checked my blood pressure, said it was normal, and sent me on my way empty handed. I live in a pretty rural state, the next closest hospital is a few hours drive. I'm pretty sure the doc doesn't even know what benzo addiction is. There is just a massive heroin issue and that's all they know.
 
Just had another seizure. Girlfriend called 911. Ambulance came, checked my blood pressure and didn't even take me to the hospital. They think I'm faking, and all they do is check my bp. At least my woman and parents will have a good life after I'm dead and they sue. That's really all I can hope for, seeing as all these pieces of shit think I have Munchausen's syndrome or something.
 
@Stotched, I´m really sorry to hear about what you have been submitted to.
I believe seizures have to be taken very seriously and if 911 is not helping I´d strongly suggest you go to a hospital and let them treat you accordingly.
You have to do that the soonest possible. Do it now. Don´t wait for the next one.
If you are already suffering/struggling with withdraws this won´t matter as much at the hospital but at least you´ll be treated differently IMO/E,
regardless of what it says in your chart. Your are not going there to seek for medicines but to see what´s wrong with you.
Forget about this line about expecting for death man!! It´s not going to help you now. Take care of yourself.
Best of luck,
Erik.
 
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You need to get to an ER and then a detox center. There should be a social worker at the hospital who can help you out. Do it right now, you are at risk of dying. I have had two due to alcohol and benzo withdrawal and am lucky I am still here.

Start calling detox centers around the area if the hospital is fucking around with you.
 
This is the type of shit that makes me feel like I live in a fucking third world country. This is a very serious situation and the people who are paid not to be ignorant end up with a mastery of ignorance and hubris. I wish I could help you.. just get out of that area and find a real hospital (class 3 or whatever) and.. fucking refuse to leave. I've been where you are and they put me in general anesthesia twice, so there is no excuse for anyone to not take you to the hospital or not treat you. This approaches immoral, unprofessional conduct that could get into a courtroom.. but that's not for now.
 
find a real hospital (class 3 or whatever) and.. fucking refuse to leave.
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This. If you're having seizures then go the hospital and stay in the waiting room until you have another one - then you'll have the benefit of medical staff on hand when it happens and hard evidence of what you're going through.
 
Would that make a difference? I've already shown up positive for benzos in my urine, they've seen receipts and the RCS, they just say "we are a hospital, not a detox facility", then give me the number to the rehab I've been on the waiting list for for over 6 months. They've been seeing me try to get help since February, at this point the staff is tired of dealing with me I think.
 
Yeah but have they actually seen you have a seizure? If they see it happen and still refuse to help you then you should sue the hell out of the hospital (you probably have enough evidence to do so anyway).
 
Are there any warning signs of a seizure? Each time I have one, I wake up after it, and don't remember anything. The hospital has called the cops on me for refusing to leave before. That's part of the reason I was incarcerated in the first place.
 
Not to bump my own thread, but I have a question. My girlfriend is prescribed suboxone and remeron. I used to be on suboxone, but ct that which is how I got myself in this benzo bind. Will taking suboxone help at all? Do opioids lower the seizure threshold? Will remeron help with sleep? I just need some relief, but am not willing to take a gabaergic drug and just set myself back.

Also, how long should I expect the acute stage to last, compared to paws.
 
Since the er won't help, im seeing my family doc at 3 today. I talked to him and a nurse on the phone, they seem very concerned and asked me to bring printouts of the drugs and what doses I was taking. My dad will be driving, as I get severe anxiety just thinking about it. Hopefully he will see I'm not drug seeking, and I am in really deep.
 
Just to clarify - you're completely CT at this point? If so, how many days has it been? If not, are you taking a reduced dose every day? Or have you been in withdrawal and literally been having seizures for days??
 
I have been ct for 10 days in jail. I had a grand mal and they gave me a shot of unknown dosage of ativan to bring me back, and then two 25mg librium. Its been 5 days ct since then. And yeah, I've been forced to ct and just been taking the seizures as they came, the hospital does not believe me, and I do not know when a seizure is coming. The hospital kicks me out usually after being there and getting my bp checked.
 
My girlfriend is getting ready to drive me to my family doc now. I'll post an update in 2 hours or so. This is really my last resort as the hospital will not help. Every detox facility in my state only does 5 day rapid Detox's. If I lived just one state in any direction I'd be fine. I live in a conservative stronghold surrounded by liberal states with actual treatment.
 
So my doc has me on a librium taper, 150mg a day for 2 weeks, then he's gonna see how I feel and go from there. He also put me back on seroquel for sleep, and my bipolar as he knows I stopped taking it and started self medicating with benzos in return. I'm waiting on the pharmacy to fill them but I already feel less anxiety knowing I may be sick, but seizures and sleep won't be an issue.

Also, I have shown up positive for suboxone, but been clean from sub's for almost 9 months! Does anyone know why this would happen?
 
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