for you dad

[bonita]

i would dig my nails into my hands til i bled
i couldn't do it out loud so i'd scream at you in my head
i held in my feelings for so long just because i was scared what you'd do to me
but i'd rather be hit then hold in these feelings that have been eating at me
i realized that just because i can calm down for the moment, it doesnt mean the angers not there
all the horrible things you'll say to me, i'll just not care
because this is what you need to hear
my real feelings shown with no fear........

is there even a word to dscribe the hate i have for you
i can't say enough fucking bad stuff about you
i hope you kill yourself with your fucking alcohol
drugs and alcohol is what you care about, thats all
why dont you go overdose and die
yea i said it, i want you to die
i hope you feel the hurt that you've caused me
i hope you despise of the asshole that you've come to be
i hope you feel everytime you've hit me and my brother
i hope you cry all the time like you've made my mother
i wish you'd just disapeer off the face of the earth
i hope you get fired from your job and your treated like dirt
i hope you spend a minute in hell for evey name that you've called me
you would never get out and that would make me happy
to the dad that i never had
i hate you so fucking bad!

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

welcome to words!

i realized that just because i can calm down for the moment, it doesnt mean the angers not there

so true. sounds like you have a lot to let out, very intense writing.

 

[Ghettotastic_bong]

A poem so honestly catharic it reads as if it's a page from one's diary.

Thank you for the read.

 

[cherub]

i have to tell you,, maybe not at the same person,, but we all have been there,, it is tough,, you did a great job getting it out ,, even if in writting i hope it works it out to clear you head to find a balance in your life where you are not so angry...

feel you definately hugs