for you.. and you would never know.

[Deleted member 10878]

startled
i closed my eyes to the world
only to see within myself.
only to see i'm filled with blackness..
only to see the truth.
i kept looking deeper and deeper,
until i only found was memories of you.
you changed me.
when i had the knife held to my wrists,
i thought of you.. and stopped.
you made my life worth living.
when i wanted to run away..
i didnt.. knowing it would only kill you.
when i wanted to defy you, i didn't
because i feared i would only hurt you more.
what i see within the darkness is a little light.
the light is you.. you are my savior and the reason i'm alive.
as tough as my life is, you make it seem okay.
i love you. i hope i make you proud. i try.
for my mother..
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AIM: MoondancerKat
"i wish that they'd swoop down in a country lane
late at night when I'm driving
take me on board their beautiful ship
show me the world as I'd love to see it"~ Radiohead, Subterranian Homesick Alien

 

[Brownie]

Sometimes the greatest things are the ones left unknown.
Great words my friend.

Brownie

 

[alykitty]

Kat: awesome words, girl!!! I hope to see you posting in here more often...

 

[E-girl]

when i had the knife held to my wrists,
i thought of you.. and stopped.
you made my life worth living.

all too often i take my mother for granted. thanks for reminding me of that.
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
"There's a part of me, that i forgot to be. Take a look and see, the light still shines in me." ~~ Milk, Inc.

 

[FallingAngel]

"when i wanted to defy you, i didn't
because i feared i would only hurt you more.
what i see within the darkness is a little light." i loved this part