for the lost

[phoenixowen]

One night a long time ago I lost you.
You were the world,
Now the world is here without you.
How could you let this happen?
When did the pain become your numbness?
Now there’s not even a shadow of what you were.
And no-one noticed.
And no-one cared.
Who decided that you should fade?
How could you leave me?
I didn’t have anything else.
And I wouldn’t call, ‘cos you couldn’t answer.
But I kept going.
Why did you do this?
How could I keep existing without you?
I guess your numbness became my pain,
Became my caution.
You left me alone. You left me cold. You left me broken.
How dare you take that from me?
When did I loose you?
I just woke up one morning and you were gone.
But they all showed up with flowers,
They all came with gifts of comfort and tidings of sorrow.
Never thought I’d still be here; without you.
My best friend, my all,
Sort of always believed the world would end with you.
I wasn’t ment to be the survivor.
I miss you.
Haven’t said that yet and really ment it,
Guess it just hurt too much.
It hurts too much now.
Why do I have to say it?
Goodbye.

 

[icy rox]

Ohhh how I can relate to this one!! This is exactly where my life's at right now and it sucks!!
But I really like your work... I know exactly how you feel! Hang in there sweetie!!
~icy

 

[E-girl]

How could I keep existing without you?
...because you are a beautiful, strong person, all on your own. you dont need to be in the same sentence, or in the same room, with this person. without them, you are someone unique. the fact that you're still here, living and breathing, is an indication that you will make it. and once you realize that on your own you're someone, you will be so much better off.
i had this same problem. and the day i realized i was ok without my ex, was one of the turning points of getting over him and getting on with my life.