stonerfromohio
Bluelighter
This pain is a result of old shame
Suffering has me to blame
I cant keep this ego tame
It resists every attempt to train
Man I question if im insane
Im living the results of past actions
This is Gods reaction to my deeds
For all the negative seeds I planted
All his love I took for granted
Man this hurts deep to the core
I can feel it in every pore
Each little cell screams out
Man this deep well inside is enough to make me scream and shout
This poem wasnt meant to ask for pity or some twisted form of pout
Man Im just feeling barren inside
I cant feel his presence abide
This feeling of isolated seperation
It hurts to damn much
Just one divine touch to heal this misery
Slaving away for a slip of paper a degree
I desire so badly to wake up from this dream
That may seem so real
But right now there is nothing I can feel
This movie reel just keeps on-a goin
Showin me what I need to know
Sometimes its just plain tough
To keep my head held up high
Lord I try
But this feeling its like a mind fry
This deep sorrow is running me dry
I gotta ask God why?
But the funny thing is that I already know
Even when I beg for forgiveness and its granted
My mind is just to slanted to accept it
Every painful bit of the me biography
Runs back into the moment and gets it all jacked up
A toxic aura that makes me feel cracked out
Makes me all wacked in the head
Got me feeling dead inside
Has me feelin alone
This experience of mine I dont even condone
Lift me out of this slump
This sleezy mental dump
Man these words make me feel like a chump
To honest with every word I speak
Listen to my throat creak
Im feelin like a freak all this madness expressed
I feel like it was easier when I was costume dressed
Ignorance is bliss they say
Its known for sure that I never used to feel this way
Man I cant keep these negative thoughts at bay
The dendrite fray is all fizzled up
Sizzlin and sparkin disgruntled ideas
I need some shears to cut out all the blown circuits
To many drugs not enough hugs
Im feelin the karma slugs for all my pain inflicted
For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction
And damn am I feelin it
Suffering has me to blame
I cant keep this ego tame
It resists every attempt to train
Man I question if im insane
Im living the results of past actions
This is Gods reaction to my deeds
For all the negative seeds I planted
All his love I took for granted
Man this hurts deep to the core
I can feel it in every pore
Each little cell screams out
Man this deep well inside is enough to make me scream and shout
This poem wasnt meant to ask for pity or some twisted form of pout
Man Im just feeling barren inside
I cant feel his presence abide
This feeling of isolated seperation
It hurts to damn much
Just one divine touch to heal this misery
Slaving away for a slip of paper a degree
I desire so badly to wake up from this dream
That may seem so real
But right now there is nothing I can feel
This movie reel just keeps on-a goin
Showin me what I need to know
Sometimes its just plain tough
To keep my head held up high
Lord I try
But this feeling its like a mind fry
This deep sorrow is running me dry
I gotta ask God why?
But the funny thing is that I already know
Even when I beg for forgiveness and its granted
My mind is just to slanted to accept it
Every painful bit of the me biography
Runs back into the moment and gets it all jacked up
A toxic aura that makes me feel cracked out
Makes me all wacked in the head
Got me feeling dead inside
Has me feelin alone
This experience of mine I dont even condone
Lift me out of this slump
This sleezy mental dump
Man these words make me feel like a chump
To honest with every word I speak
Listen to my throat creak
Im feelin like a freak all this madness expressed
I feel like it was easier when I was costume dressed
Ignorance is bliss they say
Its known for sure that I never used to feel this way
Man I cant keep these negative thoughts at bay
The dendrite fray is all fizzled up
Sizzlin and sparkin disgruntled ideas
I need some shears to cut out all the blown circuits
To many drugs not enough hugs
Im feelin the karma slugs for all my pain inflicted
For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction
And damn am I feelin it
