for colin

[starlightgemini]

how stupid was i
to think i could hide
this for so long
the truth would come out
eventually
and you'd learn
that i couldn't stop
i've been tied in chains
i'm so sorry i lied
i tried to protect you
how painful it must be
to care about
this lost little girl
who selfishly fell in love
with this evil drug
and lost her life
i promise i'll change
please forgive me
i need you to
i lost control
so long ago
that i couldn't even tell
its over now
i only lied
because i couldn't stand
to lose you
i can't live with
this guilt
i just wanted you to know
how sorry i am
i may not deserve
forgiveness
but please
don't leave me
i need you now
more than ever
i feel so empty
my soul has been lost
for so long
i wonder if
i can ever have it back
you deserve
so much better than me
i wish i could
give you all that you need
and i can
and i will
once i break free
out of this glass house
i've been locked inside
for what seems like
forever
without a mind
to think
of all the damage i've done
to myself
to you
to my life
to my future
if i have one anymore
if you need time
if you need space
i'll give it to you
i understand
how unfair
it is to give you
such a burden
how could i be
so hurtful
to the only person
i've ever wanted
to love
to have love me
the tears
never seem to stop
the darkness
never seems to fade
please just know
this is my life
i'm trying to save
so please stay here
i'll try to be strong
i'll try to get through this
but i can't be alone
i'm so sorry
i've fallen so deep
but i need to get out
i'll do all that it takes
i know i don't deserve
to have you care
about me
as much as i know you do
you mean more to me
than anything
i simply can't lose you
i love you
~*~kristen~*~

 

[Furnace]

OMG.
That was intensely beautiful.

 

[starlightgemini]

^^ thank you
~*~kristen~*~

 

[spinkle]

I'm floored, kristen.
[ 20 March 2002: Message edited by: spinkle ]

 

[harraser]

that tugged at my heart all the way through.stunning *hugs*