I'm going crazy right now stuck in my home town with fuck all to do. No real friends, noone to hang out with, nowhere to go, the weather is so shitty that i can't even go anywhere for a walk most of the time and i can't even get a goddamn coffee unless i get someone to drive me 45 minutes. How the fuck could anyone stay sane in this environment? It's like being in a fucking jail cell and I'm getting that caged animal feeling that i know oh so well. I have had it on and off since i came back home.
Sometimes it seems utterly hopeless and that i will never get out of here. But since i have a few things to live for i can't give up. I can't just lay down and die even though i have bipolar disorder as well as trigeminal neuralgia. Giving up is not a option nor is staying here as i can't handle it for much longer. When the biggest thing i have to look forward to in my day is getting high you know it's a sad life then
So yeah some changes are in order or I'll end up completely insane.
Sometimes it seems utterly hopeless and that i will never get out of here. But since i have a few things to live for i can't give up. I can't just lay down and die even though i have bipolar disorder as well as trigeminal neuralgia. Giving up is not a option nor is staying here as i can't handle it for much longer. When the biggest thing i have to look forward to in my day is getting high you know it's a sad life then
So yeah some changes are in order or I'll end up completely insane.
Its a nightmare...
