I've been fortunate in that I wake up with no recollection that they (the seizures) happened, only either accounts from others who were there or, if alone, clues, like bruises from falling off my bed or bits on my tongue/lip (I bit through my whole lip once and still have a mild scar to this day) as well as a very pervasive sense of depression/foreboding that something 'bad' happened. I've had a script for years (over a decade, different benzos), but lack the willpower to use as prescribed, so have finally ceased in taking them on a regular basis since last Spring. Now I will only use them for a comedown, travel/flight, or the very occasional recreational purpose. (I have a husband that keeps me in check, otherwise I'd be fucked.) That said, I now get very little out of them in that regard, so it's just for short term, sleep/mood control if I've partaken in other substances. People need to be VERY careful. They are insidious little things, those pills.
I'm sorry you had to suffer Valium w/d. That shit is no joke. Glad you're okay now.
Glad you're doing alright yourself as well mate, yeah u lucky cunt I never went unconscious I felt every bit lol, well I wasn't Lol'ing at the time haha
It's good your not dependant anymore , you don't need to worry about that shit, but one relapse could put you back there, how you managed to get off I don't know I'm guessing you done a sensible taper, I wll do this in the future, I am on a detox programme right now but it's pretty slow only seeing the Phsych every couple of months and it's my keyworker who keeps fuckin everything up for me , so on the phone I asked for a 1 on 1 with the Psychiatrist, just me and him, just said I can't open up in front of 3 people staring at me,
So I'm gna tell him all about my sypmtoms of Paranoid Schrizophrenia I suffered from since I was a kid, and how it was a GP who prescribed me my 1st ever Diazepam, and I wouldn't be in that drug centre if it wasn't for a dodgy batch of Valium containing Phenazepam wich fucked my head up, I need him to know that I had issues years before drugs were involved, I am in a centre for junkies and it's just not right , I should be seeing a psych , aye, but not in there, app in 2 days so hopefully things work out a bit better,
I'm cut down to 25mgs per day Diazepam and they through in 25mgs of Amitriptyline (my request), but not at fucking 25mgs, that's the dose for back pain, I told him 100+mg helps me, and they cut me down over a phone without seeing me wich was a load of shit, so I've not taken the Amitrip, and I've still been taking 10mgs Valium every 6 hours,
Thing is since the last time I seen him I've used Xanax and Klonopin, I'm not gna mention the Klonopin but I'm gna be honest about the Xanax, because the last time he spoke of Lorazepam (Xanax can't get on the NHS) for the panic attacks I was having at night time, so hopefully get a good result, being dependant on benzos is full time job man
