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First time sober...on purpose

w01fg4ng

w01fg4ng

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I have been smoking kind on a daily basis for about 15 years, holding a 'normal' life for the most part and it had never occurred to me to actually give it a break until I read a few posts on this forum about people getting tired of it and/or wanting to quit (I know weird huh?).

It's not that I want to quit, but man there really is something to be said for giving it a break, and not just because you have to.

Today was day 3. I already feel 10 times more confident and A LOT less stressed about the little stuff. Don't get me wrong, cause the shit I smoke makes me way laid back, but at the same time it makes me stress about stupid shit. Like....what does he/she think about me.....Last week I wanted to quit my job because of something my boss said to me. Today I could give a fucking rats ass what he thinks about me and I love my job. I have reminded myself why I am a good and responsible human being, simply by taking a break.
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I'm 3 months in and I still feel like I've lost a lover... :(

Off of drug classes next Tuesday, though, and Mary and I will be reunited the second I walk the steps of the county Health Department. =D



I envy you guys that can quit pot so easily and think almost nothing of it.
 
^ Wow 3 months? Congrats man.....I hope someday I can say I went that long....seriously bro.....thats fucking great.
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w01fg4ng said:
^ Wow 3 months? Congrats man.....I hope someday I can say I went that long....seriously bro.....thats fucking great.
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Thanks. It was a long road, though.

First enrolled in a 3-month substance abuse program April 21st, 2008. Didn't get my shit together/clean enough for so long that I've been there for over a year.


Can't wait to be discharged next Tuesday, the 28th of June. Can't fucking wait.



Unfortunately I still have to be real careful, though, because my supervised probation turns to unsupervised probation that's going to last until July 1st, 2011. :-(


I'll be able to manage it, though.
 
^ Damn, that is rough.

It's one thing when YOU give it up, its another when someone MAKES YOU give it up. I can see how one would be harder than the other.

It's always... well... tough isn't the word.... It's always BORING when I give the plant up for a bit. I get urges to smoke, but not necessarily smoke weed (I don't regularly smoke cigs, but smoking one will curb any cravings for weed. I think I'm just in love with that action of smoking!).
 
chainer3k said:
^ Damn, that is rough.

It's one thing when YOU give it up, its another when someone MAKES YOU give it up. I can see how one would be harder than the other.

It's always... well... tough isn't the word.... It's always BORING when I give the plant up for a bit. I get urges to smoke, but not necessarily smoke weed (I don't regularly smoke cigs, but smoking one will curb any cravings for weed. I think I'm just in love with that action of smoking!).
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Yeah, I know what you mean. I had a kind of unique situation, though.


My two best friends (and by best friends I mean brothers... we grew up together and ALWAYS had each others back no matter what) recently got locked up on multiple charges, including each a Kingpin charge. I've never sold drugs in my life, but my two longtime best friends got heavy into it. I was always around it. I had cheap, CHEAP drugs and even when I was holding they would smoke me out for free-- on a daily basis. Everything we did involved smoking weed. All day, every day.

They both got sent upstate in February and ever since I've been struggling soooo much to try to stay as clean as possible. Sometimes I lapse, but I never relapse.



To any mods, this isn't incrimination of anybody because they've already been charged, tried and convicted. Same as me, except I got hit with conspiracy charges that got dropped and only a possession charge stuck.




But being high all the time was what we did. Sad as it sounds, that's how it was. It's been so ridiculously hard for me to stay away from that shit. The Xanax I'm on now is the first time I've been really fucked up in a couple months, and it's only because I'm celebrating the end of my Drug Classes next Tuesday.




....I'm finishing this post and thinking there's no real point to any of what I said... ahhh well, fuck it.:D
 
Seriously congrats Jibult. I also have a hard time not smoking pot...a week is probably my record in about 4 years, and it was recently. It is also an integral part in many of my daily relationships and habits at this point. I know what you mean, some people can quit the bud so easily but for others it's more psychologically addicting than that.

OP, if you wanna go that long, give it a shot. I lasted a damn week, because I was in Aruba --- I drank it away instead.
 
purple_cloud said:
Seriously congrats Jibult. I also have a hard time not smoking pot...a week is probably my record in about 4 years, and it was recently. It is also an integral part in many of my daily relationships and habits at this point. I know what you mean, some people can quit the bud so easily but for others it's more psychologically addicting than that.
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Thanks.

Yeah, it's ridiculous how weed was such a central part of my life. Money, friends, parties, just being at the house chillin'.... all involved and/or was due to pot.



It's hardest to quit any drug when you've centered your life around it.
 
Err I can just about manage the fortnights without smoking I have to do when I visit my father in Essex. Well, actually, I can't... but I don't have much choice. I get twitchy as hell and actually just go out and RUN around the town madly under the cover of darkness, which is when I need it most .... This is the truth, how odd.
 
I used to smoke 3 grams a day. Over the past 6 months my smoking has been very sporadic. I still smoke, but It's rarely over two days in a week and I only get dimes and dubs now. I used to be high all the time, at first getting used to being sober was hard. Now I kind of enjoy it. My tolerance is insanely low. I got floored for three hours off of two pipe hits earlier this week. I enjoy smoking so much more now that I don't smoke all the time. Before it used to feel like I had to get high all the time, otherwise I'd feel like shite. Now I smoke because I want to, not because I have to. And I'll always love to.
 
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