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First time rolling alone

Just parachuted 135mg. Man... I was so anxious earlier to just go ahead and do it I started feeling sick. I worked out, went over to my parents house to erase any suspicion that I might be doing drugs this weekend (my parents live very close to me and are well aware I'm a recovering addict and keep an eye on me at all times..). I came back at 5:30, picked up the vicks inhaler, and got a couple more glow-sticks that link up together. Did an hour of school work amazingly.

I have an essay due on tuesday that I've been totally blowing off. I'm typically very good at writing essay's, especially on the subject its on, but I am a tiny bit worried about rolling tonight before starting to write any of it. I have to analyze a movie and how it portrays a psychological disorder. Hopefully tomorrow and monday I won't be too fucking blown away to write anything!! LOL.

So I did that for an hour until I couldn't write anymore because my hands were starting to shake in anticipation of doing this. I was trying to get 120mg, but I went a little over to 135 and decided to go with it anyways. I want to really really roll my face off. I parachuted it in a bit of toilet paper, so I should digest all of it. As soon as I came and sat down I already felt different, probably placebo. I'm gonna post a couple times during the night describing my experience. Wish me luck!!!
 
dude you have to go see the new harry potter while on molly.
you wont feel paranoid and you wont mind all the people trust me.

i rolled and went to the midnight premiere and i was SO into the movie and the charecter interactions that i fuckin cried. like the movie really struck my heart and my emotions when i was rolling. it was beautiful.
if you grew up on harry potter and are emotionally attached to the charecters and the storyline then go watch it tonight rolling!! you will not regret it!!
 
Yeah, I'm gonna go at the latest showing I think! Thanks for the recommendation, I was still undecided. Now I'm gonna go.

40 minutes in I'm definitely starting to feel this. Was talking on the phone my words messing up, starting to roll right now typing this. I'm like not looking at these words but at the screen in general holy shit
 
TheMoney said:
Man.. I just said fuck it and told the kid not to send anything. I did some research, and I believe the kid just didn't know what he was talking about and THOUGHT that MDPV was similar to ecstasy, idk maybe to him it is and whatever shit he takes that's called 'ecstasy', but I said no thanks. My body doesn't react well to drugs, but ESPECIALLY stimulants. I can't take adderall anymore at all, speed would be terrible, and I do coke sometimes, but since my last binge in August I realized I just have too many health problems that it exacerbates to make it worthwhile. The high isn't worth the problems it brings.

I was so excited about this weekend... SO excited, and this is like the 3rd time this happened, where at the last minute I realize I need to pull out or it doesn't come through. Ughhh I don't want any other drugs but ecstasy. That's ALL I want, and I want it reallly really bad, lol. Fortunately, in an effort to further enhance this would-be-weekend's-experience, I got a friend to send me a couple grams of G-13 and purp chronic. At least I'll have some weed to smoke (haven't smoked since April) and I'll pray my best friend up in ATL gets over his cunt-ache and helps me out : ) (lol!)
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Good move. After I read ur post about it being MDPV I was hoping you'd look it up, it's nothing more than than NDI (norephinephrine-dopamine reuptake inhibitor) which would be a complete waste of money. It would feel no better than adrenaline, except maybe some euphoria from the dopamine reuptake inhibition.


EDIT: Enjoy ur roll :D
 
Does xanax or other benzo's like klonopin diminish the roll in any way? I'm thinking about taking some before I go watch a movie, I typically have anxiety, or will that not be a problem on x? I really really want my whole mind/body to be taken over by happiness, I don't want to be able to ruin it for myself with negative thoughts like I sometimes do while high, so I was thinking I might take a xanax to help the anxiety. IDK if that's a good idea to do though.

I'm starting to feel great. Completely warm, impulsively moving the music watching a light show on my comp, put on my black lights instead of the regular light because it was starting to bother me.
 
MDMA, like all drugs, affects everyone differently. Driving under the influence or suggesting that it's safe for others to do so is irresponsible and potentially deadly.

That said, I've rolled alone and find it somewhat less enjoyable than doing it in a party atmosphere. (This is not the case for everyone!) I suggest setting your intention beforehand, which it sounds like you've already done. Surround yourself with plenty of sensory stimuli, but also consider what it is you want to focus on mentally during the trip. Is there a problem that's been plaguing you? Just want to dance or meditate or send positive vibes to someone? Your mindset plays a big role in determining how heavy the experience will be, so ask yourself what you want to take away from it and then go for it.
 
Hmm... interesting lady codone, appreciate the advice. I am mid-roll right now. Have taken 330mg. (120mg just 15 minutes ago). I took 135mg at 7, 75mg at 9, and now 120mg at 1:10. I went to the harry potter movie, it was amazing. I could like feel the characters, it's by far the best HP movie out. However, I took a klonopin and it kind of diminished my roll, well diminished it A LOT. I was still rollin in the theater, but not as much as I should have been.

Now, I'm correcting that. Smoked a bowl of G13, dropped that 120, and we'll see what happens. I know some people say redosing after one time is pointless, but others say the .4g maximum, which I believe in (I hope it's true anyways!!! haha). We'll see. I'll update the thread. Fun night so far, I can't believe it's already 1am jesus.
 
Enjoy your night man. People react differently...some people will probably feel a 3rd re-dose whereas other people might just get more sketched out. To me a 3rd time seems like pushing it... I stick with one re-dose after about 1.5-2 hours and then weed/benzos for the comedown. You'll have to see how you feel when it's over and during the following days, you can adjust your dosage if you run feel down.
 
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Thanks for the input. Yeah, I knew this was going to a big night, where I can blow out some energy for the next few days. I really really want to roll hard to night. Right now I definitely am. That re-dose and smoking some weed, and cigarattes with this music and light shows/g-force backgrounds, vicks, i'm trippin.


BUT** - I am taking alpha-lipoac acid and a strong multi-vitamin with antioxidants that help prevent neurotoxicity. I've taken the dosage twice tonight and probably will a 3rd time now.
 
Yeah I feel my brain heating up like it did on my 18th bday party. This is good, but it's also a sign to me that shit is going on in brain, lol, somethings getting crunk and fucking some shit up. lol, I'm just now watching a re-run of the UFC earlier tonight that I missed going to watch HP. It' awesome, BJ penn knocked out matt hughes in the opening minutre!! I was sooo happy. Now Rampage vs. Machida!! I love fights, I get really into it. This is perfect for rolling.
 
My older brother was a DJ. His shit is more like breakbeat, but has some trancelike feel too it sometimes. Listening to the song...


'go.. ohhh.. go... ohhh...ohh oooh..gooo ... lose control'

it's so fucking tight. Bout to hit up the beach. I know 2 hours till sunrise, but i'd rather spend it there than walking around the outside of an empty mall (which I do very often). Touching the grass was rather orgasmic, and I toyed with a nice sheet/rug/fur/thing that was amazing... I'm strait chillin to be real. This night is happenin'
 
Alright, made the harm-reducing decision: I'm not going back to the beach. I drove there and got back (I left my lighter at home), but I am wayyy to fucked up to be doing any of that shit now. I know that. I'm staying at home as much as I wanted to see the sun-rise
 
Now it's 7:23am, i've felt pretty depleted and just fucked up the past 2 hours, lol. I'm ready to go to bed. That was so intense
 
Well, now I'm back up at 5:30pm. Just had a nice breakfast of 3 eggs and 2 pieces of whole wheat oatnut toast. Along with a huge glass of OJ and lots of vitamins/5-htp.

I really feel pretty good, I thought I was going to be feeling like complete SHIT right now. How hard I was rolling last night.. omg.. I can't believe I'm not utterly destroyed. I took that 120mg at like 1am, and then I snorted 80mg at 4am, and man.. I got so fucked up from that, I ended up breaking my pipe, lmao, so I couldn't smoke weed anymore besides trying to make a fucking aluminum foil pipe, which I did, but didn't work very well. Even if the pipe didn't break, I needed like 2 more grams of weed and I could have lasted until the sunrise. I was working on spare rations, but it worked out well. I watched Harry Potter which was amazing, I wish that I hadn't read the books watching the movies because it would make them so much more exciting. Or rather, I wish I hadn't re-read the book so recently so I knew every scene. But still, it was the best movie of the series BY FAR, and I was really feeling it. Driving to the theater was fine, I felt like I drove better than ever, driving back was the same. I took a klonopin to go = mistake, kind of killed my roll.

Came back at 1am and took 120mg and smoked the little weed I had, lots of cigarettes and I was tripping. I went out to go walk a few times, the wet grass felt amazing, but I didn't walk much, I came back inside and toyed with a blanket which was incredible, vicks shit, all of that, lights, black lights, I was rollin' face at this point. Then I realized at 4 that I had to re-dose for the last time then or it wasn't going to do anything if I waited until 5. So, I did the last redose of 80mg which I Snorted. Then I just got fucked into oblivion. I was like drunk on molly. This shit definitely didn't have any speed, which I guess is really good, but it would also have been nice to have a little bit of speed to keep me goin. At the beginning I could toy with the lights, but later on I was getting tired and just being lazy lol. Doing whatever felt best at the least cost of energy.

I went to the beach, but it was high-tide and I was wearing my jeans and jacket because it was cold, the tide was so high that I had couldn't go down to the shore at the pier. So I waited, then realized I left my lighter, came back home, realized I was way tooo fucked up to drive on the way back, and just stayed here until I went to bed. O yeah, I did watch last nights UFC event (mixed-martial arts, fighting), well the re-run of it, and man, I got really into that, that was tight as fuck.

Overall, very good time, got really really fucked up, and I feel alright today, don't know what else I could ask for for a night alone.
 
Thank you Monkey : ) I am too!! I learned some important things about timing my roll, how long it's going to last, that I need to get more weed next time, and not to take any benzo's!! Next time is going to be wayy better on christmas break. I can't wait! This will be like the first time I've ever bought drugs and done what I wanted and been completely satisfied, but still had more for the next time which will be just as good.

I've bought 100's of pain-killers, but I'd take them everyday, it'd be one long binge. This is different, it's using one night, then waiting a month and using again. I've never been able to do that with drugs before. We'll see how long I can wait, I know I want to give myself the best chance at having an amazing roll with the stuff I have.
 
also from firsthand experience

ive rolled well over 50 times, and im 19, and those 50 times was in a 6 month period lol.
im in college and doing well, i only roll once a month now, and i can honestly say that after such heavy use of ecstasy and long nights of partying my cognitive functions really have not been harmed suprisingly.

ecstasy is a great drug, and i take 20 vitamins a day, all 100% of daily dose, and maybey thats why im in good shape.

so if you take heavy amounts of vitamins daily then you could get away with rolling every other week. hell i used to roll a week on end every day and im just as fine as i was before, doing great in school.
 
Eyes On the Roll said:
you're retarded dude. nobody here is suggesting to drive on anything.
i drive on adderall every day, is that not cool??
air force fighter pilots are REQUIRED to take adderall to fly billion dollar jets equipped with fuckin weapons.
mdma is a stimulant, not a depressant or a fuckin benzo dude. you act like someone driving on mdma is going to shout "OMFGOZZZ A UNICORN!!" and drive off into space and kill someone.
mdma isn't like that rofl. do some book research or even first hand research before you decide if mdma physically depresses you or not. because it doesn't.
yes its a MILD psychadelic, but its main quality is that its a physical STIMULANT!
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Youre an idiot mate. This is a harm reduction site, not for kids playing at being big and cool. Ive done plenty of personal research for the last 18 years AND Ive studied psychopharmacology so I reckon I know plenty. Im not saying MDMA is a physical depressant. But is anyone actually going to argue with me that it affects judgement and perception? Are they helpful skills to have intact when driving a car....I wonder.

Now can a moderator please ban this fool for going against the main rules of Bluelight and supporting this kind of thing? Also maybe you need 'book research' so you can learn to spell psychedelic correctly. Finally...

TheMoney said:
3. Once I'm really into it for a few hours I'll probably go for a walk, or maybe drive, I loveee driving messed up, and while I have been known to get in a wreck here and there, I've never gotten any kind of DUI. If I'm rolling too hard I won't drive anywhere until I need to drive to the beach. I can generally get myself from one location to another if I have to, no matter my condition..
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You obviously dont read the original posts mate. He said in the opening he likes to drive on pills. Dont compare flying a plane on amphetamines to driving on MDMA. This isnt a philosophical debate. My kids arent 30000km up in the air. Driving under influence of perception altering chemicals is for assholes.
 
halycyondaze said:
Youre an idiot mate. This is a harm reduction site, not for kids playing at being big and cool. Ive done plenty of personal research for the last 18 years AND Ive studied psychopharmacology so I reckon I know plenty. Im not saying MDMA is a physical depressant. But is anyone actually going to argue with me that it affects judgement and perception? Are they helpful skills to have intact when driving a car....I wonder.

Now can a moderator please ban this fool for going against the main rules of Bluelight and supporting this kind of thing? Also maybe you need 'book research' so you can learn to spell psychedelic correctly. Finally...



You obviously dont read the original posts mate. He said in the opening he likes to drive on pills. Dont compare flying a plane on amphetamines to driving on MDMA. This isnt a philosophical debate. My kids arent 30000km up in the air. Driving under influence of perception altering chemicals is for assholes.
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do you not know how to fucking read? never did i condone driving on x, i said its a fuckin amphetamine and phenylethylamine, i dont give a fuck what you studied dude. take a shot at me and ill tell it how it is so back up for real. never once did i tell someone to drive on X, i stated how its similar in its stimulant qualities to amphetamine, and naturally amphetamine is a focus enhancing drug.. DO YOU SEE THE RELATIONSHIP??? fuckin kook, back up.

So because my dad has a fuckin track in his backyard, and i pop beans and i take the 911 out back and spin it around the track, am i fuckin asshole? an asshole cause you're jealous?

is anyone going to argue with me that amphetamine (adderall/speed) effects judgement and perception? no, because it does, when you're high on a drug you're in an altered state of mind. when you're on speed you'll do more daring things, at a faster pace, because you feel you can mentally and physically handle more.
My dad was in the fuckin navy for 15 years as a fighter pilot on air craft carriers, and he used to get GEEKED out of his fuckin mind on speed, that he was required to take, before taking control of a fuckin half a billion dollar fighter jet. idiot.

oh and you have kids? what a roll model you are taking drugs. i think you're an asshole for that.

you're saying something about my spelling, what do you work for MLA?? when i'm not writing a fuckin paper i chill and don't focus on all the bullshit i have to pour over in class. this is an informal forum bro.
crawl back up in your asshole, get down from your high horse, take care of your kids and get off this forum,

if you wanted to talk shit to me then PM me, don't intrude on this dudes topic, but if you take a shot at me ill get you back. lil bitch

you pretty much called everyone on this forum an asshole, because i'm sure at one point or another everyones drivin on drugs dude.
just cause i take the 911 out while rolling and top it out in my back yard track, doesn't mean i'm condoning you to do the fuckin same. i can handle shit you cant.
just like how you fuckin shoot heroin in front of your kids, you're not condoning them or me to do the same, right? see we have something in common, if you have a problem with me then fuckin use PM ASSHOLE.
 
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