nayroxy
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Ever since I was 14 and I first experimented with marijuana, i would get on this site before the experience, and EXTENSIVELY read first hand experience and harm reduction threads. I honestly believe this site has kept me safe throughout this journey we call life.
A little information about my drug history, I started geitting high with marijuana at 14. By the time i was 15 I wanted to try just about every different drug i could get my hands on. By 16 I had experimented with oxy/hydrocodone, psilocybin mushrooms, DXM, alcohol and various other prescription pills. I always had two rules that i still follow to this day (although there has been some bending this past year) which was
1) No needles
2) Don't touch the big 3, i.e -Crack, Heroine, Meth.
Fast forward to about 10 months ago...I had been addicted to opiates, especially oxycodone, for about 3 years, averaging about 80-100mg a day. Christmas eve 2014, I get a call early in the morning about 4am, that my best friend had died in a car wreck just hours before. Long story short, I find out it was a heroine overdose, this doesn't suprise me, he had been using heavily the months before he went. I had tried it twice with him before and couldn't understand the appeal, he would usually slam his, me always smoking or snorting. So a couple months after this I get a text from a friend that says he is trying to get rid of some really good tar, he is still to this day the only person to contact me about heroine, crack or meth. So i end up coping and he goes through the process of adding powder and turning the tar into a snortable substance. I try it several times, still doesnt come close to the holy grail, oxycodone. About 3 weeks ago i realized even though i was holding a full time job, it was hell. I would blow my whole check on rent, and pills. 1000 dollars would be gone in 3 hours if my girl friend didn't hold on to my money, then i would go through the pills in about 3-5 days then have no money, a pissed off girlfriend and feek like death for 5 or 6 days, embarrasing right? So I contacted a friend who i knew was going to the methadone clinic, got in, got a physical and got my first dose in just a couple hours. I had no idea this was really going to work, i upped my dose to 60 mgs and now i feel fine i haven't thought even once about going out and scoring. Its a little expensive, 10$ a day so 140$ out of each pay check, but compared to the 800$ i normally spend, its a hell of a deal. Its the first time i havent worried about getting oxy in years, and it is such a new feeling, to have money to save, and spend on my girlfriend. To have time to start reading again because im not out in the streets riding around trying to hustle up money to get pills all day. So anyone out there dealing with an opiate addiction, whether moderate or severe, try out methadone. The people that work there are VERY understanding and there is almost always councilers that are former addicts, i have only gone to one place but my friend has been to almost every single one in town so im getting that information from him. They offer support groups and individual counciling its great. They even allow me to continue smoking marijuana everyday, you only get into some hot water if your mixing methadone with other harder drugs, especially if your mixing it with other downers, i was told you can get kicked out for that.
Ok, so now my methadone preaching is out of the way, a little info about myself. Im an avid pot smoker going threw the Methadone Matienence Program. I turned 21 this past july. I have been playing the skins (drums, lol im cool like that%)) for around 11 years, favorite music to play along to is Jazz and Rap, just because i can improvise pretty much all of it. I love playing basketball and im not too bad at it, which is interesting to me because im a skinny white boy haha. Im currently living in Kansas, unfortunatly, born and raised, but will be moving to portland in about 17 moths. I love learning about anything, and i also enjoy reading almost more then anything else, im currently on the 2nd book of Stephen Kings series "The Dark Tower" which is phenomenal so far.
So thats all i have to say i suppose. ANY TIPS FOR FIRST TIME POSTERS/USERS PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTS.
Thanks you BL community
-nayRoxy
A little information about my drug history, I started geitting high with marijuana at 14. By the time i was 15 I wanted to try just about every different drug i could get my hands on. By 16 I had experimented with oxy/hydrocodone, psilocybin mushrooms, DXM, alcohol and various other prescription pills. I always had two rules that i still follow to this day (although there has been some bending this past year) which was
1) No needles
2) Don't touch the big 3, i.e -Crack, Heroine, Meth.
Fast forward to about 10 months ago...I had been addicted to opiates, especially oxycodone, for about 3 years, averaging about 80-100mg a day. Christmas eve 2014, I get a call early in the morning about 4am, that my best friend had died in a car wreck just hours before. Long story short, I find out it was a heroine overdose, this doesn't suprise me, he had been using heavily the months before he went. I had tried it twice with him before and couldn't understand the appeal, he would usually slam his, me always smoking or snorting. So a couple months after this I get a text from a friend that says he is trying to get rid of some really good tar, he is still to this day the only person to contact me about heroine, crack or meth. So i end up coping and he goes through the process of adding powder and turning the tar into a snortable substance. I try it several times, still doesnt come close to the holy grail, oxycodone. About 3 weeks ago i realized even though i was holding a full time job, it was hell. I would blow my whole check on rent, and pills. 1000 dollars would be gone in 3 hours if my girl friend didn't hold on to my money, then i would go through the pills in about 3-5 days then have no money, a pissed off girlfriend and feek like death for 5 or 6 days, embarrasing right? So I contacted a friend who i knew was going to the methadone clinic, got in, got a physical and got my first dose in just a couple hours. I had no idea this was really going to work, i upped my dose to 60 mgs and now i feel fine i haven't thought even once about going out and scoring. Its a little expensive, 10$ a day so 140$ out of each pay check, but compared to the 800$ i normally spend, its a hell of a deal. Its the first time i havent worried about getting oxy in years, and it is such a new feeling, to have money to save, and spend on my girlfriend. To have time to start reading again because im not out in the streets riding around trying to hustle up money to get pills all day. So anyone out there dealing with an opiate addiction, whether moderate or severe, try out methadone. The people that work there are VERY understanding and there is almost always councilers that are former addicts, i have only gone to one place but my friend has been to almost every single one in town so im getting that information from him. They offer support groups and individual counciling its great. They even allow me to continue smoking marijuana everyday, you only get into some hot water if your mixing methadone with other harder drugs, especially if your mixing it with other downers, i was told you can get kicked out for that.
Ok, so now my methadone preaching is out of the way, a little info about myself. Im an avid pot smoker going threw the Methadone Matienence Program. I turned 21 this past july. I have been playing the skins (drums, lol im cool like that%)) for around 11 years, favorite music to play along to is Jazz and Rap, just because i can improvise pretty much all of it. I love playing basketball and im not too bad at it, which is interesting to me because im a skinny white boy haha. Im currently living in Kansas, unfortunatly, born and raised, but will be moving to portland in about 17 moths. I love learning about anything, and i also enjoy reading almost more then anything else, im currently on the 2nd book of Stephen Kings series "The Dark Tower" which is phenomenal so far.
So thats all i have to say i suppose. ANY TIPS FOR FIRST TIME POSTERS/USERS PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTS.
Thanks you BL community
-nayRoxy
and whatever else I had to do to get that high ,when I had no other way to afford my habit I tried many ,many times to detox on my own, but couldn't do it , I decided it was time for rehab. I went for 24 days and did well through medical detox, was given neurontin for foot pain and that worked well for a while ,continued to go to meetings and all that. Then
