JarBag
Bluelighter
It’s almost 9pm, my friend gathers together from his what felt like an unlimited supply of MXE (25grams+.) He said he bumped 70mg earlier and did similar measurements and was 'fine'. He eyeballed '50mg' for me, but was really hard to tell. I really doubt it was just 50mg, unless you can m-hole and have ego-death on 50mg. It really could have been just about any dose.
**Update on dosage -- Confirmed to be 120mg at the minimum of MXE.**
I sublingually take the MXE. My friend who binged for almost three weeks straight on MXE said that sublingually was possibly the best way to go about.
Go to the bathroom and come out a few minutes later, the taste is awful. I have never snorted anything, but I am now considering.
By 10 minutes in I am already sitting with my legs crossed on the floor can barely feel my limbs and already what felt like an early third dxm plateau. Kicked in hard and fast, I was not expecting this.
15 minutes in, my friend suggests we go to my other friend’s house, Michael.
“Whatever you wanna do, man” – Me.
We head down stairs walking past his Mom. I said bye and tried to walk straight down the stairs but was already entering this dark place in my mind, everything went widescreen.
I got a drink, tried not to spill it everywhere, succeeded.
Every time you do a drug, it feels like another drug, but this was its own thing.
I was like “dude, feel my heart, I think it’s beating really fast.” He said it was fine, I sort of laughed.
I was really glad he never said anything like if I was doing okay, that would've hardcore psyched me out.
He would never fuck with someone tripping either, we've both been hospitalized for different reasons.
We are definitely pretty conservative and safe with drugs though.
I have never had a 100% bad trip either, just bad parts. And to be honest to me the only time a trip has gone 'bad' is full blown psychosis.
We hopped in the car, by this point, less than 20 minutes in I am almost fully dissociated.
He gave me a cigarette, which just slowly went away as I smoked it, only noticed it thrice. I was completely numb 20 minutes in. Driving down the road, going 50 in the passenger seat I started to feel all kinds of things. From feeling good, to thinking I am dying, to thinking I am dead, to awful waves of anxiety, paranoia. I was paranoid I would get paranoid that he may try to kill me. All over the place.
Although this is my first time with MXE, I have done DXM 30+ times, acid 10+ times and probably 50 other trips
I have also done ketamine once, IV'd. It was a K-Hole. Felt smoother than MXE. MXE was way more confusing, but then again when I did ketamine it was really just: 1. IV 2. Back 3. What happened?
I kept myself together, but music was 'gone', didn’t know if it was playing, major auditory flanging.
I worried a little bit thinking I couldn’t breathe, since when I inhaled, it was fine, but the only thing I felt was me exhaling. This odd sensation in my lungs..
All the sudden everyone I heard talk and myself had major lisps. He said we didn’t.
I was just in the sky\space\I have no idea what was going on anymore, was just completely gone.
Texting my Dad to say I wouldn’t be coming home that night was so difficult, I ended up managing to text like myself with a little help from my friend.
We went through a drive thru, he told me to taste the coffee, the best coffee ever. I took a small sip and not large since my sense of temperature was off... completely off.
Honestly I don’t really know what happened the next two hours, but in all this time I experienced ego death, had my second hardest trip yet..
We had met up with another friend and I kept thinking about getting out the car to loiter outside of where we bought a drink, but I was too fucked up.
I asked him about my pupils, he said they were fine. I was like, the hell? They got really constricted later and my pupils are fine the next day.
I couldn’t walk, was too paranoid too (didn't want to see cops.) Later we drove to walmart, they went in but I wanted to stay in the car.
I called a friend and talked for a few minutes to tell him what I was experiencing. I really couldn't form words or reality.
I kept putting my seatbelt on when it was parked, because I kept thinking it would stop me from falling through existence.
My other friend who had showed up go to walmart treated me like a normal human, I apologized for how out of it I was. He was 0% bothered by me. (The guy who we hung out with for a bit before walmart\during.)
At about 11pm back at the original house I dropped at I had gathered myself together a bit, still felt like I was floating and couldn’t feel anything on my body and it was so hard to walk. Craziest audio flanging as I lied on the ground merging as matter with everything and nothing which was existence to me at the time.
By 1am I felt good to drive, but chose not to.
Luckily we ended up not going to my other friend’s house (original plans) till about 2 and we smoked weed there.
My HPPD kicked in pretty hard as I faded away.
I didn’t want to go to his house earlier since I kept saying: “I can’t see his Dad like this, I can’t mask this.” He wasn’t going to take us there yet anyway, he's a great trip sitter. (Not for that reason, but from prior experiences.) I said a few embarrassing personal things, which is fine now.. I crashed so hard that night, felt like an MDMA comedown. This is for sure MXE though, even though that doesn't seem to sound normal.
So much happened, I can’t even describe everything. Was one of the craziest things ever. Normally I can explain\sum up trips a bit but this is too different. Sorry for the sporadic report, it is now the next day and I feel kind of flustered, about a million typos I had to correct.
All around, less euphoric than DXM to me, but I need to try a lower dose, as high dose DXM doses aren't very euphoric either.
Will experiment more with this. This trip made me rethink my perspective on thinking about doing heroin, and thought about how I don't want to destroy my life for a few hours of bliss.
I feel better as a person, kind of new.
Peace.
**Update on dosage -- Confirmed to be 120mg at the minimum of MXE.**
I sublingually take the MXE. My friend who binged for almost three weeks straight on MXE said that sublingually was possibly the best way to go about.
Go to the bathroom and come out a few minutes later, the taste is awful. I have never snorted anything, but I am now considering.
By 10 minutes in I am already sitting with my legs crossed on the floor can barely feel my limbs and already what felt like an early third dxm plateau. Kicked in hard and fast, I was not expecting this.
15 minutes in, my friend suggests we go to my other friend’s house, Michael.
“Whatever you wanna do, man” – Me.
We head down stairs walking past his Mom. I said bye and tried to walk straight down the stairs but was already entering this dark place in my mind, everything went widescreen.
I got a drink, tried not to spill it everywhere, succeeded.
Every time you do a drug, it feels like another drug, but this was its own thing.
I was like “dude, feel my heart, I think it’s beating really fast.” He said it was fine, I sort of laughed.
I was really glad he never said anything like if I was doing okay, that would've hardcore psyched me out.
He would never fuck with someone tripping either, we've both been hospitalized for different reasons.
We are definitely pretty conservative and safe with drugs though.
I have never had a 100% bad trip either, just bad parts. And to be honest to me the only time a trip has gone 'bad' is full blown psychosis.
We hopped in the car, by this point, less than 20 minutes in I am almost fully dissociated.
He gave me a cigarette, which just slowly went away as I smoked it, only noticed it thrice. I was completely numb 20 minutes in. Driving down the road, going 50 in the passenger seat I started to feel all kinds of things. From feeling good, to thinking I am dying, to thinking I am dead, to awful waves of anxiety, paranoia. I was paranoid I would get paranoid that he may try to kill me. All over the place.
Although this is my first time with MXE, I have done DXM 30+ times, acid 10+ times and probably 50 other trips
I have also done ketamine once, IV'd. It was a K-Hole. Felt smoother than MXE. MXE was way more confusing, but then again when I did ketamine it was really just: 1. IV 2. Back 3. What happened?
I kept myself together, but music was 'gone', didn’t know if it was playing, major auditory flanging.
I worried a little bit thinking I couldn’t breathe, since when I inhaled, it was fine, but the only thing I felt was me exhaling. This odd sensation in my lungs..
All the sudden everyone I heard talk and myself had major lisps. He said we didn’t.
I was just in the sky\space\I have no idea what was going on anymore, was just completely gone.
Texting my Dad to say I wouldn’t be coming home that night was so difficult, I ended up managing to text like myself with a little help from my friend.
We went through a drive thru, he told me to taste the coffee, the best coffee ever. I took a small sip and not large since my sense of temperature was off... completely off.
Honestly I don’t really know what happened the next two hours, but in all this time I experienced ego death, had my second hardest trip yet..
We had met up with another friend and I kept thinking about getting out the car to loiter outside of where we bought a drink, but I was too fucked up.
I asked him about my pupils, he said they were fine. I was like, the hell? They got really constricted later and my pupils are fine the next day.
I couldn’t walk, was too paranoid too (didn't want to see cops.) Later we drove to walmart, they went in but I wanted to stay in the car.
I called a friend and talked for a few minutes to tell him what I was experiencing. I really couldn't form words or reality.
I kept putting my seatbelt on when it was parked, because I kept thinking it would stop me from falling through existence.
My other friend who had showed up go to walmart treated me like a normal human, I apologized for how out of it I was. He was 0% bothered by me. (The guy who we hung out with for a bit before walmart\during.)
At about 11pm back at the original house I dropped at I had gathered myself together a bit, still felt like I was floating and couldn’t feel anything on my body and it was so hard to walk. Craziest audio flanging as I lied on the ground merging as matter with everything and nothing which was existence to me at the time.
By 1am I felt good to drive, but chose not to.
Luckily we ended up not going to my other friend’s house (original plans) till about 2 and we smoked weed there.
My HPPD kicked in pretty hard as I faded away.
I didn’t want to go to his house earlier since I kept saying: “I can’t see his Dad like this, I can’t mask this.” He wasn’t going to take us there yet anyway, he's a great trip sitter. (Not for that reason, but from prior experiences.) I said a few embarrassing personal things, which is fine now.. I crashed so hard that night, felt like an MDMA comedown. This is for sure MXE though, even though that doesn't seem to sound normal.
So much happened, I can’t even describe everything. Was one of the craziest things ever. Normally I can explain\sum up trips a bit but this is too different. Sorry for the sporadic report, it is now the next day and I feel kind of flustered, about a million typos I had to correct.
All around, less euphoric than DXM to me, but I need to try a lower dose, as high dose DXM doses aren't very euphoric either.
Will experiment more with this. This trip made me rethink my perspective on thinking about doing heroin, and thought about how I don't want to destroy my life for a few hours of bliss.
I feel better as a person, kind of new.
Peace.
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