Vlad the Inhaler
Bluelighter
Over the past 2 weeks (well, 16 days exactly) I've been smoking some #3 brown, I got a hold of online, almost every single day, bar a few. Not a huge amount, just over a gram, just doing small runs at a time. I've never had addiction issues with anything other than nicotine before, even though I've used oxys; crystal meth; and crack a number of times in the past (but always very spaced out between sessions and no more than a couple of days); and have also used a lot of codeine in the past but never binging for more than a week at a time and always large gaps between binges. Over the the past fortnight I had a day sober after one week and had zero cravings or withdrawal-like symptoms; then last Thursday I also had a day off, again no negative symptoms; and finally last Sunday I abstained again, thankfully still managing to go without any ill effects, nor cravings whilst staying at a mate's house away from my stash. Yet I still went back home and did more, even though I felt no inclination to other than that I was a bit bored and it's a great drug - "just one more blast before I call it a day" I thought.
The big question now is, am I likely to feel any withdrawal effects now that I'm quitting, as of an hour ago? I've got a load of weed and some co-codomol to help me, if so; and I will only touch the co-codomol if I absolutely have to, if I'm feeling like hell.
Rather stupidly I decided to finish the tiny bit I had left at the bottom of the bag last night even though I promised myself I would stop at exactly the 2 week mark, which then led to me starting a new bag, thinking fuck it - a little more wont hurt if tonight is my last. I'm still high now but I'm not touching anymore, the bag is back in the draw and shall remain there until I take it to a good friend today who'll look after it for me for at least a month, and under no circumstances will return it any sooner. Originally I told myself I'd use for just 2 or 3 days; then it turned into a week; then 10 days... you get the picture. Normally, I only use class A's with friends, just brief stints lasting a weekend at most, but this time I went it alone and have certainly learnt from it. Never again like this, only socially.
I've been on morphine a number of times in hospital, after surgeries, for periods of up to a fortnight in the past without any noticeable withdrawal symptoms - but I was in pretty bad shape then, generally, so maybe it just wasn't so aware with so much shit going on. I think I used that as a bit of an excuse too, to keep on using a bit longer with the heroin, convincing myself that I'd be okay with a couple of weeks light useage. I feel pretty stupid now carrying on like that, I know from reading numerous posts regarding the serious addiction others have suffered that this isn't something to fuck about with, to treat lightly, yet that's exactly what I'd started to do. This is the first time I've let myself run away like this and to be perfectly honest I'd a tad worried even though I've had no physical symptoms whatsoever, so far, whenever I haven't been high .
The big question now is, am I likely to feel any withdrawal effects now that I'm quitting, as of an hour ago? I've got a load of weed and some co-codomol to help me, if so; and I will only touch the co-codomol if I absolutely have to, if I'm feeling like hell.
Rather stupidly I decided to finish the tiny bit I had left at the bottom of the bag last night even though I promised myself I would stop at exactly the 2 week mark, which then led to me starting a new bag, thinking fuck it - a little more wont hurt if tonight is my last. I'm still high now but I'm not touching anymore, the bag is back in the draw and shall remain there until I take it to a good friend today who'll look after it for me for at least a month, and under no circumstances will return it any sooner. Originally I told myself I'd use for just 2 or 3 days; then it turned into a week; then 10 days... you get the picture. Normally, I only use class A's with friends, just brief stints lasting a weekend at most, but this time I went it alone and have certainly learnt from it. Never again like this, only socially.
I've been on morphine a number of times in hospital, after surgeries, for periods of up to a fortnight in the past without any noticeable withdrawal symptoms - but I was in pretty bad shape then, generally, so maybe it just wasn't so aware with so much shit going on. I think I used that as a bit of an excuse too, to keep on using a bit longer with the heroin, convincing myself that I'd be okay with a couple of weeks light useage. I feel pretty stupid now carrying on like that, I know from reading numerous posts regarding the serious addiction others have suffered that this isn't something to fuck about with, to treat lightly, yet that's exactly what I'd started to do. This is the first time I've let myself run away like this and to be perfectly honest I'd a tad worried even though I've had no physical symptoms whatsoever, so far, whenever I haven't been high .
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