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First time going to doctor for depression/ anxiety - What to say?

bryan21

bryan21

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I believe that Ive been depressed for a while now, and never really realized it was a legitimate thing, always thought I was just sad and there wasnt really a cure for that...
I have been thinking about seeking help for a while now, just had a really shit day and Ive decided that Ive had enough and I need something to numb my mind for a while until life stops sucking so bad. I have never been suicidal in my right mind, but often experience suicidal thoughts on marijuana (maybe just my true feelings coming out?), but lately Ive just wanted to curl up and die.
I booked an appointment with my family doctor to discuss this. I dont really want to go through a whole lot of therapy or anything, because Im not really comfortable with talking about this sort of thing with people. The druggy in me says to get some pills to help with the problem. The only problem is that my doctor knows that Ive dabbled with various substances in the past, and I dont know if hes being all judgy about it, but potentially I have been labelled a drug addict in his eyes. Could this effect my chances of being prescribed anything that might help me?
What would I tell him to get a script for some decent antidepressants?

Also I dont know if this qualifies as anxiety, but I constantly have worrying thoughts, that other people dont like me and are judging me all the time (even though I know that sometimes theyre not), I just dont feel comfortable around people anymore. I often do drugs alone not because I have no one to do them with, but because alot of the time I just cant stand being around people. Some days I dont even want to get up in the morning, Im just kind of unmotivated and dont see anything to look forward to in the future and dont feel like I belong anywhere. I just dont feel like the same person anymore. I have had a panic attack before as well. Would this qualify as some sort of anxiety? Would I be able to get meds for this? What would I say?

Sorry for the long post, I dont usually do this sort of thing, discussing personal matters with the online community... I know theres alot of questions, Id just like some insight and guidance from people that have gone through this sort of stuff.
Thankyou all so much for taking the time to read this,
Bryan
 
nobody can answer this honestly with out telling to simply tell the truth.


leaving this open, and even the title is a bad idea, if you want to hear others experiences and any relations thats one thing, but answering the subject of your post is mostly a bad idea for yourself.

in fact, i would go as far as to say, see 2 or 3 doctors if possible before accepting any diagnoses.


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Well, I know you said that you really don't feel like talking about it with anyone, and I suppose thats fine. But in my personal experience, just talking about it really does help. It also doesn't hurt to have a person who can look at your situation objectively and without bias and who's trained to recognize these kinds of issues with people. Hell just talking about it on here should help a little.

As far as what to say to your doctor, just be honest. But remember, you aren't depressed. You're suffering from a condition called depression. And because its a condition, it can be changed. It doesn't always have to be like this, and when it gets better, life just feels amazing. :)
 
Hi Bryan - 1 more post until you're a Bluelighter :) there's something small to look forward to :)

I understand where you're coming from on many levels... wanting to be alone when you do drugs just because you don't want to be with people, not wanting to get out of bed, and all the other self destructive thoughts that go with it. I've been there, and sometimes (more often than i'd like) I end up back there.

Whilst i am far from qualified to diagnose you, they definately sound like signs and symptoms of depression - but i'm only speaking from my experience.

I would encourage you to talk to your doctor, and i would imagine (if he/she is anything like the docs i have been to) they will be throwing anti-depressants at you as soon as you describe how you are feeling.

Be careful though - it took me a while to work out that a cure doesn't come in a pill. Maybe step back and have a look at your lifestyle first. Are you healthy? How old are you? What keeps you entertained and busy?

There are plenty of people on here that have been in the same place as you are now - you CAN get through it and turn your life around. I'm sure you have people in your life that love you and care about you. I know it all sounds very cliche' and "motivational", but you need to believe it yourself.

Take care.
 
Just tell your doctor you're depressed and have anxiety and go from there. I didn't want to tell my doctor anything either she just asked me a few basic questions and bam! I was prescribed an anti-depressant...I didn't have to tell her my life story.

They most likely will want to refer you to a psychiatrist first and especially if you ever want to get a benzo for your anxiety. Try as hard as you can not to get one though unless you really need it. Well good luck! And speak up because your doctors there for you. They won't judge you or look down on you...if your doctor did leave and find a new one.
 
bryan21 said:
...I booked an appointment with my family doctor to discuss this. I dont really want to go through a whole lot of therapy or anything, because Im not really comfortable with talking about this sort of thing with people. The druggy in me says to get some pills to help with the problem. ..
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You won't want to hear this however in my opinion you shouldn't consider taking medication for anxiety or depression without at least trying some kind of therapy first. When I approached a GP for the first time about depression I walked out with a script for an SSRI and now regret going straight on it without looking at other methods of dealing with my problems. As PiP suggested see if you can also see a couple of doctors before believing any diagnosis.

Looking after your health can be hard work, mental helth included. Best of luck & good job getting up the courage to see a dr in the first place.
 
Its comforting to see all this support, thankyou all.
Im 18 years old and I just finished my first year of university. Im a saxophonist and Im studying music which is alot of fun and used to occupy alot of my time. Recently I feel that my feelings and what I think to be depression have been getting in the way of this. Making music is something that Ive loved to do for a while now, but lately Ive just been feeling really unmotivated, uncreative, and it just seems like the passion is gone. I just can't give my passion my full mental attention like I used to be able to and my career is suffering.
I dont know if this is the right way to go about things or if this makes sense at all, but I kind of just want to get my mind off of my thoughts so I can get back to whats important in life before I do something stupid and throw it all away (I did pretty well in school this year, but have been contemplating not enrolling next year because of this lack of motivation).
 
Do not let depression win. Trust me I felt/feel the way you do. I got so depressed that I hated art and I always loved it. It was so weird to find no passion in make a piece of artwork...I had no motivation but I started to force myself to get out of bed and do something. Right now I'm on a ssri its not really helping so ill have to switch it but it helps to know I'm trying... I really am trying to get into counseling and I know it would help a lot. Trust me I don't like talking about my issues to others but sometimes you just have to give in. I hope you find something that works for you...just don't give up. Keep trying and please stay in school.
 
this happens...

and now-a days its easy to go for a drug "one pilll makes one larger and one pill" we hear. i play, or make music rather;-) and sometimes its good to set it down and walk away a while, then come back to it when the time is right. there is plenty of other stuff to do, go explore and see what inspiration comes, not all songs of the heart are all smiles...

but to have an out-let such as music can be a way to release and convey to others- idk, find yourself some, and release yourself some - and ebb&flood.


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bryan21 said:
Sweet Im a bluelighter. First good thing to happen all day haha.
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The most important thing is not wondering "what to say" - but to do your research on potential medications, and to form opinions about what's acceptable and unacceptable for side effects for you. Some people can be on certain medications, others can't.

Try to focus on a plan that best suits you - there are a lot of options out there, and a lot of them can be harmful and others can be extremely beneficial. What works for me wouldn't work for everyone. :)

Best of luck, and let us know how it goes!
 
I still live at home, so I talked this over with my mom.
She wasnt exactly understanding....
She isn't allowing me to see a doctor about anything like this, says theres nothing wrong with me.
But most of all she thinks that by admitting that I may need some sort of help and having this on my medical records that its somehow disgracing her family name or some shit like that...
I just dont know what to do.
 
panic in paradise said:
nobody can answer this honestly with out telling to simply tell the truth.


leaving this open, and even the title is a bad idea, if you want to hear others experiences and any relations thats one thing, but answering the subject of your post is mostly a bad idea for yourself.

in fact, i would go as far as to say, see 2 or 3 doctors if possible before accepting any diagnoses.


<3

i hope you see what i am saying ...
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Captain.Heroin said:
The most important thing is not wondering "what to say" - but to do your research on potential medications, and to form opinions about what's acceptable and unacceptable for side effects for you. Some people can be on certain medications, others can't.

Try to focus on a plan that best suits you - there are a lot of options out there, and a lot of them can be harmful and others can be extremely beneficial. What works for me wouldn't work for everyone. :)

Best of luck, and let us know how it goes!
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^ Good advice here :). Obviously you need help and need to be challenged but not in a 'threatening' way that might infringe on your sense of personal freedom. It does sound to me, like your craving challenge though but you will have to find someone who can do this without you being fearful of losing your own sense of identity etc. Shop around(as mentioned above), and as mentioned with others, maintain honesty with yourself(you seem very aware of what you need ATM and that is so commendable, stick with it pet! :)), get a 'feeling for who will work best with you and dont sell yourslf short ie get a health professional/councellor that you can wrap round your little finger(for obvious reasons! ;))

Let us know how you get on! <3
 
Just be honest. The doctor wants to help you. I hope you find whatever it is you need to help you overcome your problems.
 
despite the stigma attached to mental/emotional problems, every one needs help from time to time in that arena.
i have had 3 fucking quack psychiatrists and one brilliant, competent one that rooted out the cause of what then was suicidal depression. it was driven by side effects of meds that one of the former p-docs had me staying on. this guy figured out the problem within the first 15 minutes of the first session.
i would offer that you be totally honest as this is the only way an accurate diagnosis can even be possible. Secondly, try and get a reference from someone who's opinion that you value. that's how i found the doc that fixed my shit.
as i understand it, depression's cause can be situational , genetic, driven by side effects of strong chems and other reasons. it is commonly referred to as a 'chemical imbalance'! That sounds right to me.

watch your substance abuse as when our minds are off kilter, dosing it with rec or rx drugs muddies the water badly . when mentally off balance, psychs are not a good thing at all.
 
Man from what ive been through with depression meds and shit okay heres a list of whats gonna happen:
1. they will try to give you lexapro or another ssri. SSRI'S FUCKING SUCK. if your giving me drugs with withdrawls, atleast let them get me high..dumb fucks.
2.If you lucky you might get something for panic attacs like xanax or kpins. YOU will need to be very VERY lucky.
3. They dont prescribe shit that gets you high for depression..dont even try unless you are lucky and have a complete quack for a doctor.

They gave me lexapro. it barely helped. I told em i wasnt takin any bullshit SSRIS anymore b/c of the loosing sleep, and cant bust a nut, and all the other shit. I ask if they could give me something besieds ssris. THE DUMB FUCKS PRESCRIBE ME ZOLOFT. ARE YOU SHITTING ON ME MEDICARE? NOT ONLY DID I SPECIFICALLY ASK FOR SOMETHING BESIDES AN SSRI, BIRTH DEFECTS,

BIRTH DEFECTS..GOD FUCKING DAMN THANKS GOVERNMENT..ILL STICK TO WEED AND PILLZ AND MAYBE TRY HEROIN
 
In my opinion you can more than likely get through this without the medication. I really think anti-depressants are over-prescribed. I think it might be just generally the way you're living your life. That kinda sounds harsh but that's how it was for me. That means you're in control of it though/ you can change if you want. I think, for me, it was a case of thinking I was a certain person and then having my actual situation not reflect that. The key changes I made were quitting weed, reading (altering my perspective, learning how to make changes for myself) and socializing/learning how to socialize. I think it's good to fully accept that you're feeling depressed, but you don't need to accept the idea that you need medication, or that you have some 'mental illness', or accept sympathy from anyone. Even if you are depressed, or whatever tough times you're going through, you're still a good person and worthy of everything that anyone else deserves. Keep going man, you'll get through it!
 
bryan21 said:
Also I dont know if this qualifies as anxiety, but I constantly have worrying thoughts, that other people dont like me and are judging me all the time (even though I know that sometimes theyre not), I just dont feel comfortable around people anymore. I often do drugs alone not because I have no one to do them with, but because alot of the time I just cant stand being around people. Some days I dont even want to get up in the morning, Im just kind of unmotivated and dont see anything to look forward to in the future and dont feel like I belong anywhere. I just dont feel like the same person anymore. I have had a panic attack before as well. Would this qualify as some sort of anxiety? Would I be able to get meds for this? What would I say?
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The worrying thoughts of you thinking other people dont like you start with you yourself. You gotta like yourself before others will like you the majority of the time, its just a fact.

I know someone like you, he just goes to work & then comes home & smokes weed & doesnt wanna be around too many people. He hates it in fact & gets very paranoid & think people are always talking about him & what not. He was diagnosed with being bipolar.

I hope you are not bipolar but only time will tell. Imo, you gotta be honest with your doctor as far as the suicidal thoughts go. He has to get a feel of what you are feeling & how you are seeing life itself. He probably will prescribe you an SSRI & possibly light benzo if you have any anxiety attacks.
 
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