First Roll Coming Up and Questions About Compatibility of Goals

[riggs747]

Good Day:

I am a 53 year old, super fit male who has a high tolerance for drugs. I restrict myself to alcohol and xanax these days (not always in combo). Once a year I have a mushroom week with friends while out camping. In my teens and early 20's I was a regular user of LSD and Mescaline (and a variety of other substances). I rolled once, in 1984 without really knowing what it was and it was GREAT.

So, those are my bona fides.

I find myself at a cross roads both spiritually and sexually. I miss the newness of youth, the wonder of it all. As well, I am looking to enhance one of my fetishes and reach a higher level of sensuality and connectedness with my solo sexual fun. These are done on a solo basis and are not harmful. It was suggested to me that Molly would be great for much of this. I have an unimpeachable source and the quality is without question. I do not need to "roll" with others (though that would be nice) as I have no social issues and can meet and talk to almost anyone, at any time. However finding someone to roll with at my age is nigh on impossible and my home situation requires me to roll without my spouces consent.

So... the inquiries:

1) I plan to roll alone, in a very large hotel room in Reno with room to move and, if I require people, a club I can wander to. I will have everything I need at my fingertips.

2) I plan to dose 150mg. 100mg at start and 50mg boost within an hour and a half. I am 5'9" and 183lbs.

3) Goals:
- Gain personal insight into aging and my own life. Regain a sense of wonder with the world.
- Indulge in my fetish of role playing with a great degree of sensuality. (will do alone).

Questions:

a) Are these goals incompatible?
b) Dosing: I think I'm right. Thoughts?
c) Rolling alone: I've heard mix reviews... any thoughts?

Any thoughts or comments would be appreciated.

Thank you for your time.

Riggs747

 

[Brenthoward]

Not to be a jerk but your health in this case would be based highly on your level of cardiovascular fitness level, how often you are active, and your overall diet.
I mention this because many people who weight train believe they are in great shape because of physical appearance, but their blood-work and their internal health is not nearly as ideal as it may appear.

If you goal is to explore sexuality, you may consider taking Cialis 30 minutes before taking MDMA. Note this can place a higher level of stress on the heart and should be used only if your physically up for it.

Rolling alone for what is essentially your first time is not necessarily a bad thing however consider that MDMA is designed to put you in touch with humanity, explore human connection, and create social wellness. One person I know of had taken MDMA as a solo experience and it quickly turned into a frantic need to text and phone people. They were desperate for the human connection and wanted to talk and share.

You are also away from home so having a guide with you can be important should anything else go wrong.

While there is no hard scientific data to support what I'm saying, I would strongly consider taking one dose of 150mg over taking a redose. I cannot say if this dose will be enough or not but I would think it should be a good mid-point.

This is based on experiences of those around me that have taken (abused) the substance. Those that have not redosed over a period of 4+ years seem to have faired better.

 

[riggs747]

Thank you for the feedback. My blood work, cardio fitness and coverall health are in the top range. Liver functions fine, heart works perfectly, BP in normal range. I do cardio as well as HIIT 6x/wk. So, as for the frantic need to contact... I plan on licking my phone in a safe. I feel an overwhelming urge for people, there is a dance club attached to the casino. I've been fucked up n a number of substances in the past by myself without a minder... I've done ok. From what my research has shown, I won't have some weird urge to run naked thru the hotel hallways... though I pity the poor room service guy who come up and I chat his ear off (I plan on having all supplies at hand). My sexual exploration does not require an erection so I'll be fine. I'll take the dosing advice. I've a scale and all the caps are between 110 and 155mg. I'll open up a 155 and drop it into a shot of warm water and down that. Anything else you can think of?

Oh, I've been to rollsafe and am utilizing their supplement guide. As well, I will have play ,lists picked out already and Pandora to fall back upon.

Much Thanks.

 

[Brenthoward]

Awesome. Glad to see you are taking an accurate reading of your overall health.

I'm just about to post another new thread that gives more detail on my background with chemistry / health / medicine.

Good call on not redosing. The only potential issue is if you have a natural high tolerance to MDMA and take 155mg and you do not feel the full effects you essentially have to 'try again' only that means waiting another month or so (again see my thread for experiences with frequency.)

Unless you're mixing MDMA with something unique, you will be just fine (no running around naked). If end up feeling social there are no shortage of people around a hotel as you've mentioned.

Let us know how it goes!

 

[augustaB]

Umm Riggs, the first few times I rolled I was very glad I had company to reassure me that I was okay and to tell me what I was experiencing was normal and enjoyable.
So I'm not entirely convinced that rolling completely alone is a good idea for the first roll.
But as you have LSD experience I suppose you have experienced far stranger things than happen on a mdma roll.
Indeed you might find mdma a disappointment.
I would suggest taking an initial dose of 100 mg and the remaining 50 mg about an hour afterwards once you are sure that you have no adverse reactions.
As people who roll often a huge desire to reach out and touch somebody else, I suggest you hide your phone and laptop.
What are your trying to find out about your sexuality? Your penis will probably not function very well but the sense of touch is heightened. Make sure you have suitable toys available.

 

[Amadeus-]

I find this thread very interesting. I'm in a similar situation; however, I'm closer to 40 and I'm more interested in just the euphoric possibilities than sexual possibilities, to be honest.

I look forward to seeing the report on how it goes.