So first of all, I will give you a short backstory on myself.
I am a recovering heroin addict trying to get a grip on my life for the sake of myself, my child, and my family in general.
I am currently pregnant and got myself off of heroin when I first found out I was pregnant. The way I got off was by getting myself onto subutex. Pretty much my whole pregnancy I have been taking 8mgs of subutex two times a day, sometimes less than that. Actually a lot of the time I only take a pill and a half because it's so expensive on the street, and I simply just cannot afford it with the baby coming and all my bills.
I was honest with my Midwife about my drug use and she referred me to a suboxone program in my area so that I could do this the legal way and get control of my life again. She was extremely supportive and understanding which is honestly what I need in my life .. Especially with my anxiety and depression I deal with on a daily basis. So I made my first appointment at the suboxone clinic for today and I saw my doctor. First of all, I payed $280 in cash just for the appointment alone. Only to feel completely judged and not taken seriously AT ALL. First of all, I'm a small petite girl and I don't look very big for being 39 weeks pregnant , when he asked about me being pregnant I said "I'm 39 weeks" and he said .."um I see no baby ?" I literally had to pull my shirt up and stand there uncomfortable as heck to "prove" I was pregnant. Even though in the beginning they took my urine sample. He continued to ask his basic interview style scripted questions as I answered. And he asks me "so what do you do just take subutex and sit at home all day" .. Implying basically I'm a lowlife and do nothing productive .. When I can barely walk and handle this pregnancy and the toll it's taking on my body.. I just felt as though he was extremely rude.
Also! when I first went into his office he said to me "I see no subutex in your urine" which I just used my last half pill the night beforehand so I see this as nearly impossible!! I feel like I was made into a big joke there whenever all I'm doing is trying to help myself for my family
Anyways he prescribed me to 2 2mg tablets a day when my body is used to 2 8mg tabs! Wtf what a huge change. I feel horrible with urges to use like crazy!! What am I supposed to do. 2mg is not helpin me at all and only putting me at further risk to use again plus feel like major shit!
I need this doctor to realize where I'm coming from and hopefully up my dosage and take me more seriously!!! This is so stressful. Does anyone have ANY advice ?! I go back in exactly a week. Please help me.
I am a recovering heroin addict trying to get a grip on my life for the sake of myself, my child, and my family in general.
I am currently pregnant and got myself off of heroin when I first found out I was pregnant. The way I got off was by getting myself onto subutex. Pretty much my whole pregnancy I have been taking 8mgs of subutex two times a day, sometimes less than that. Actually a lot of the time I only take a pill and a half because it's so expensive on the street, and I simply just cannot afford it with the baby coming and all my bills.
I was honest with my Midwife about my drug use and she referred me to a suboxone program in my area so that I could do this the legal way and get control of my life again. She was extremely supportive and understanding which is honestly what I need in my life .. Especially with my anxiety and depression I deal with on a daily basis. So I made my first appointment at the suboxone clinic for today and I saw my doctor. First of all, I payed $280 in cash just for the appointment alone. Only to feel completely judged and not taken seriously AT ALL. First of all, I'm a small petite girl and I don't look very big for being 39 weeks pregnant , when he asked about me being pregnant I said "I'm 39 weeks" and he said .."um I see no baby ?" I literally had to pull my shirt up and stand there uncomfortable as heck to "prove" I was pregnant. Even though in the beginning they took my urine sample. He continued to ask his basic interview style scripted questions as I answered. And he asks me "so what do you do just take subutex and sit at home all day" .. Implying basically I'm a lowlife and do nothing productive .. When I can barely walk and handle this pregnancy and the toll it's taking on my body.. I just felt as though he was extremely rude.
Also! when I first went into his office he said to me "I see no subutex in your urine" which I just used my last half pill the night beforehand so I see this as nearly impossible!! I feel like I was made into a big joke there whenever all I'm doing is trying to help myself for my family
Anyways he prescribed me to 2 2mg tablets a day when my body is used to 2 8mg tabs! Wtf what a huge change. I feel horrible with urges to use like crazy!! What am I supposed to do. 2mg is not helpin me at all and only putting me at further risk to use again plus feel like major shit!
I need this doctor to realize where I'm coming from and hopefully up my dosage and take me more seriously!!! This is so stressful. Does anyone have ANY advice ?! I go back in exactly a week. Please help me.
