"Fine"

[Rollingrrl]

You ask how I feel today?
"Fine!" I say back, I lied.
My face calm, no thoughts betray
me to my mind gone mad.

I can't, can't tell the truth,
about what goes through my head.
Such things to serve as proof
that my sanity has indeed fled.

So now a pack of lies I tell.
I'm afraid you can't understand,
how it is for me in this hell,
this horror of my mind's design.

I don't know who I am,
these thoughts aren't all mind.
So when you ask how I am?
My eyes may water, but I'll say, "fine"

~Shelly~

*does exotic belly dance*

 

[shal]

I really can relate to this piece of writing as I imagine many could. It's a funny thing how we often deny how we really feel and then ask ourselves in the long run, what is it that I was really trying to protect?

You described the feeling perfectly. You reflected what comes from inside and I for one could certainly feel that sadness.

Why do we do it to ourselves?.. I'm not to sure...

*Hugs*

Shal..