Finding true meaning in one's life ?

[Psylex]

Since i can remember i have always been an idealist/absolutist, trying to find perfect meaning and truthfulness everywhere i go... there had been some times where my state of being was in pure harmony with nature, i knew who i was and what i wanted, my life was great and filled with love and activity, but eventually that life changed. I moved somewhere else in order to study and during the last 2 years up to now i went down an obscure hole filled with emptiness, depression, anxiety, hate and suicidal thoughts, for the first time i discovered massive loneliness : i have no one in my life anymore and i even forgot what a relationship consists of, and my psyche is not driven by any concrete stimulus (to give an example of this : i am asexual and i don't have any hobbies atm).

So what is everyone's personal and general idea of meaning? Because ultimately we, as consciousness, create meaning.

Even if i am at my lowest point in life (close to destruction), i'll still give the remnants of my view of meaning. Infinite Love (perfect familly of friends), Infinite pleasure and activity (psychoactives, lucidity and creativity), Infinite knowledge and wisdom (ideal belief system)... i'd imagine a life where i would live next to the beach (a culture full of intuition), not a single problem left in my mind, surrounded by soulmates, daily i'd go surfing and do all fave sports, then party and dance in nature with an intense sound/light system and the rest of the day talk about philosophy/spirituality for hours and immerse myself in the information cloud (internet projected on a wall for art, gaming, science, etc..)... But as i am not a realist i need your help to realise how i could make my daily life more bearable. Thank you in advance

 

[opium]

i feel you brother..

ever since getting clean, (Dont know if that has anything to do with it) ive become Depressed, and seclude myself from most of my outside contacts, and im not even sure why. I also like to think, when it gets sad or down somtimes, i imagine a perfect life where theres no worries, and everythings fine

My meaning on life, as small and obscure as it may sound, is i think...if i existed for a purpose, and i end up not making it there...what would happen?

What if my destiny someday down the road, i change somebodies life? Or i say something that sparks somebody to realize that they need to continue living? i could never let myself go, not for me, but in the fact that i may ruin somebody elses life by not fulfilling what im meant to do.

Maybe i sound fuckin crazy, but thats how i think of my existence or purpose in life. that i may live long enough to impact somebody elses life. and if i could do that for just one person, then my life and purpose are complete; at least in my eyes.

 

[hthr007]

^^ My philosophy on life sounds very similar to Opium's.

I live my life hoping to impact another person's life for the better. I don't know why I'm here yet, but someday I'll find out. Someday it'll suddenly click what my purpose in this BS world is. Making others happy is what makes me happy -- as silly as it may sound.

When I wake up in the morning, I always think "what if?" What if today is the day that I change someones life forever? What if today is the day I keep someone alive? What if today is the day I make a tiny bit of difference in someone's life and they remember me forever? What if someone actually finds me useful? I don't particularly find myself useful, so that's why I may constantly seek out the approval of others. But it does genuinely bring me joy and happiness knowing I've made a difference in someone else's life. I would much rather be remember as "that girl who always cared about other people and put them first" than "that girl who was always consumed with herself".

xx

 

[Pagey]

For me, the idea of meaning only came about once I tried to kill myself the first time and failed - I figured that since I should have died but didn't, there must be some sort of reason for me to still be here. Deep down I don't think I really believe that, but what I do know is that I need to give myself a reason to go on. This reason became giving things back to others, being able to help others. I remember watching one of my Led Zep DVDs and getting really emotional cuz I loved it so much and thinking that I wanted to be able to touch people with my own creations like that someday anyway for me, that took the form of writing and I guess that's what my meaning is, to be able to help or touch others through my writing.

 

[DemonSeed]

Sometimes we are in a state of mind where we are actually aware of our meaning on Earth. Most of the time though, we don't have that awareness. So I think my meaning in this life is actually to keep searching for that meaning... hell I may not even have to search, sometimes it's better not to ask too many questions... just sit down, be patient, get angry, cry... and then I'm pretty sure at a point, like the Buddha said, "you will tilt you head at the sky and laugh at how everything is perfect".

 

[malakaix]

I've been fortunate enough to explore and experience some of my greatest desires and what I've learnt from this is it's completely circular in nature; you lead yourself on the belief that you will be happier having reached these goals but when it's all said and done, your still you.

Eventually you get tired of you; and you come to see that when you break it down all you really have in this life are the moments you share with others. When it is no longer satisfying to indulge in your own desires, when your personal will has all but dried up and there is seemingly nothing left of pleasure and the only option it seems is to give up; it's in that moment you see the true value of life.. and you want nothing more then to help, inspire, empower and encourage all those around you.

You shift from focusing inwards to outwards.. I see this a lot in people who have gone through very dark periods in there life.

For me the meaning of life is to experience life so that I may create my own meaning and understanding through the pain, suffering, pleasure and joy of all of this around me! And through this help others, we're all here, separate but as one.

 

[PriestTheyCalledHim]

Go on a spiritual journey. Realize that you're a spiritual being in a human body this time and in this lifetime. I like Hthr007's post about helping people, and Pagey's right that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

 

[opium]

Pagey and htr got it down..
Like was said, after being through what I've been through..I no longer really give a fuck about myself. If what's happened hasn't killed me yet, somethings bound to lie in the future. I can never be sure, I can just hope that it will.

Wrong or right, it gives me a reason to keep going

 

[cornerstone430]

After a few strange things that happened in my life, i believe religion will lead me to a higher purpose. Atleast keeping faith will lead me somewhere. Never was too big on religion but did study it until saw some messed up stuff and a miracle happend to me.

Schizophrenia is a constant torment so i like comfort in knowing a lot of people suffered worse than me.
Though religion has played part in a lot of war and bad things i still keep my faith because that one thing that happend.