finding my way

[lilygirl]

What do you do?
When you can’t make sense of anything
But you still crave something new
How do you survive each day?
You can’t without hurting people
And nobody’s okay
How can I escape this life?
When I can’t comprehend anything
And I’m trapped in constant strife
I find myself slipping
“There aren’t any patterns
Just take it day by day”
You say
Candy coated hallmark card
I can do this my way.
With a “C’est la vie”
as I slip behind the wall
of fake smiles and empty conversations
Don’t judge me
I’m not crazy
Just damaged
And frightened of
What will happen next
Let me be the bad example
“This is what happens when you care”
So become apathetic while you can
Loving people is where this all began
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"you will get this chance but once, don't let simple shit get you down"
therapy is expensive, poppin bubble wrap is cheap. you decide.
sn~ sparkleylily

 

[Rhiannon]

Lil, thank you for yet another insight into your soul. I could give a prep response to this and say that you don't have to pretend, but it isn't true. Everyone's fake here...I wish you wouldn't pretend, though. You're an incredible person. Don't hide your spirit.
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[Rhiannon]

Oh, Lil, by the way, you better not be dissin' my posts the way you do OTHER people's. *cough* Otherwise, I'll have to sic Hess and Dexter on you, and he'll Frumple you to death. Be afraid.
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[Mellabopper]

good work

 

[seyton]

xxx ZERO bullshit tolerance in the Words forum. thanks for playing! xxx
[This message has been edited by Mellabopper (edited 05 October 2001).]

 

[lilygirl]

i wasn't trying to convey anything in particular. I was really upset so i just tried to express how i was feeling. take what you want from it