So I've been doing a lot of soul searching lately and i think I might know what to do. Joseph Campbell in one of his lectures mentions a tribe in new guinea and their adulthood ritual. I think I might need to do something similar. I need to find my god and beat the living shit out of it. Finding it will be a task in and of itself but going toe to toe with a deity sounds dangerous. I'm Going to try and risk it any ways. Hopefully i can find some DMT soon enough to do so. Not a certainty but seems like the best bet for finding god when religion just doesn't make sense.
It's interesting how modern societies have gone away from official rites of passage. We have small ones here and there, like getting your driver's license, but they're by no means mandatory, and not particularly transformative.
That said, be careful with the heavy psychs. Whatever you contact, is within you at all times. Gods or demons, they are carried along, and it is possible to wake up some angry things if you're not prepared. At the very least, practise some 'happy place' visualization.
I'm not joking. Try to imagine the most calming, soothing place imaginable. Ideally a real place that you've been to, and have felt at peace while there. Then picture yourself there, calm and at peace. Get to the point where you can do that on command. If things go south in DMT space, and you have the presence of mind to use this technique, it can help immensely.
Good luck.
That said, be careful with the heavy psychs. Whatever you contact, is within you at all times. Gods or demons, they are carried along, and it is possible to wake up some angry things if you're not prepared. At the very least, practise some 'happy place' visualization.
I'm not joking. Try to imagine the most calming, soothing place imaginable. Ideally a real place that you've been to, and have felt at peace while there. Then picture yourself there, calm and at peace. Get to the point where you can do that on command. If things go south in DMT space, and you have the presence of mind to use this technique, it can help immensely.
Good luck.
Thank you for the advice i particularly want to find some demons and so far a fruitless search. I was thinking DMT because needed something stronger. My previous combos of psychs used to reveal things about myself but lately nothing. The best I've come across was complete ego loss I think. Just remember looking at the dog and thinking i know what its like to be you. I need to find this dynamic of myself. Without it I do not believe i can move past this stage in my life. I could be sorely mistaken but either way good advice.
What I've learnt, through taking drugs, is that the ability to find things out about yourself is always there but we put so many obstacles in our way that we sit back and say''WTF,I dont get it, I cant get it'' but we put the obstacles there, only we can remove them but usually we dont want to take any responsibility for the obstacles, we balme everything. Although, Enviroment/People have an influence on what we see,it is really up to us to see the truth about ourselves, to genuinely want to face it, despite our ego. Drugs can dismantle it but we are still controling how we do it, we arent willing to go there naturally because we're terrified of organically and patiently going into the truth for fear we cant handle/control it...but it is only fear and impatience, it dont kill ya! Im a very impatient person, but coming to terms with this fact helps me to see the truth of me.
Just my 2cent.
Just my 2cent.