Debbie Combs
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Oct 10, 2018
- Messages
- 158
I’m OK Ash, thank you for asking. How are you?
So tired of whining. I’ve double BP med and it’s still hanging around 180/110. Pain in neck/head is real. Fatigue. All much the same.
Job front........Union having to take grievance to step 2. Management is Still pushing for additional documentation, going against HIPPA laws, harassing, still wanting removal. Hoping this will set a precedence for others. Union feels strong. They are asking for administrative leave for time I took to go to Dr and gas money for transportation. ———— a side note, in my office——— they have fired every high up. Post master, plant manager, gave 2 weeeks suspensions to all subordinates. It’s a shit show. Lol
The second job, I’ve decided I can not push it physically. Although it’s the job I LOVE, it’s not what pays my bills. They are going to have to find until I can get pain under control. Makes it hard because it’s the family business. Daughters do NOT understand why this is dragging on so long.
After i went to chiropractor my head was pain free for about 10 hrs. I had, for the first time in many years, voluntarary positive thought. It was a thought, a pleasant sweet thought. Quite calming. Wish I could get it back. I’ve tried. I push positive in my brain, but negative comes creeping back. It had been so long that had a pleasurable thought, it hit me like a ton of bricks. Will pain alter thought process?
on methadone, I do not believe I thought, I reacted, in every situation. Sounds dumb, but it’s how I lived for years. I Could not feel ....... mentally or physically. Example, I could not sleep. One day there was extra blanket put on bed by my granddaughter. I used it later that night and slept like a a baby. I could not tell my body was cold. I never did anything to alter a bad situation in my life. If something negative effected me I’d put up with it till I could not feel it anymore.
I can feel now, physically I’m in pain from the injury that put me on opiates to begin with. I’m trying to keep from using but weighing in my head what are the benefits. Quality of life.
So tired of whining. I’ve double BP med and it’s still hanging around 180/110. Pain in neck/head is real. Fatigue. All much the same.
Job front........Union having to take grievance to step 2. Management is Still pushing for additional documentation, going against HIPPA laws, harassing, still wanting removal. Hoping this will set a precedence for others. Union feels strong. They are asking for administrative leave for time I took to go to Dr and gas money for transportation. ———— a side note, in my office——— they have fired every high up. Post master, plant manager, gave 2 weeeks suspensions to all subordinates. It’s a shit show. Lol
The second job, I’ve decided I can not push it physically. Although it’s the job I LOVE, it’s not what pays my bills. They are going to have to find until I can get pain under control. Makes it hard because it’s the family business. Daughters do NOT understand why this is dragging on so long.
After i went to chiropractor my head was pain free for about 10 hrs. I had, for the first time in many years, voluntarary positive thought. It was a thought, a pleasant sweet thought. Quite calming. Wish I could get it back. I’ve tried. I push positive in my brain, but negative comes creeping back. It had been so long that had a pleasurable thought, it hit me like a ton of bricks. Will pain alter thought process?
on methadone, I do not believe I thought, I reacted, in every situation. Sounds dumb, but it’s how I lived for years. I Could not feel ....... mentally or physically. Example, I could not sleep. One day there was extra blanket put on bed by my granddaughter. I used it later that night and slept like a a baby. I could not tell my body was cold. I never did anything to alter a bad situation in my life. If something negative effected me I’d put up with it till I could not feel it anymore.
I can feel now, physically I’m in pain from the injury that put me on opiates to begin with. I’m trying to keep from using but weighing in my head what are the benefits. Quality of life.