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Milo41 said:
I really dont trust drs mate, I've got bipolar bpd anxiety and ocd and they've fucked me over so many times its unreal. I asked for mmt a couple years ago and was straight up told 'no you got yourself in this situation get yourself out'. I've asked again since and got nothing back so doing it on my own
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Forget GPs, they're shit. You need to contact the drug and alcohol services. Even though they also have their faults, at least you should be able to get a prescription for methadone/ buprenorphine pretty quickly.
 
F.U.B.A.R. said:
Forget GPs, they're shit. You need to contact the drug and alcohol services. Even though they also have their faults, at least you should be able to get a prescription for methadone/ buprenorphine pretty quickly.
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I'll have a look properly once I've moved, ive got to have a crb check for drugs offences for the flat weve been offered so I dont want anything possibly stopping that as it says on the swanswell page something about tenancy. I know mmt wont show up on a crb but I dont know what else they can see or check
 
Milo41 said:
I really dont trust drs mate, I've got bipolar bpd anxiety and ocd and they've fucked me over so many times its unreal. I asked for mmt a couple years ago and was straight up told 'no you got yourself in this situation get yourself out'. I've asked again since and got nothing back so doing it on my own
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It's tough to get doctors to listen to you everywhere sometimes. But it sounds like you might have an idea of what you need to do to get it done. I'm hoping only the best for you, you've got friends here. Happy BL birthday bud
 
Thanks shady

empeebee said:
Hey @Milo41. What d'ya reckon? Could you make 5 days? 7? 10? 14? Jus' askin'
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Honestly mate I dont know, I'm giving it a good go though I've managed it before so I'm hopeful, I've got a good reason for it this time aswell
deficiT said:
It's tough to get doctors to listen to you everywhere sometimes. But it sounds like you might have an idea of what you need to do to get it done. I'm hoping only the best for you, you've got friends here. Happy BL birthday bud
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They're stories for another day but the drs round here are laughable.
Thank you mate
 
Welcome to Bluelight @Milo41 !
Coming off of benzos suck mate, and it can be deadly. Where I work most of the seizures we get are from guys that are detoxing from benzos, so hopefully you can have some available for the comedowns.
Maybe reach out in the health and recovery forum and start a recovery journal, or blog. Talk a little about what's really been going on with you.
Let any of know if you need anything at all. <3
 
empeebee said:
OK @Milo41. Pick a number. Any number. BUT you gotta commit and follow through, OK?

1) 5 days
2) 7 days
3) 10 days
4) 14 days
5) 21 days
6) 28 days

Choose 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. Deal or No Deal ;)
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If I make it to day 5 (tomorrow) itll be a miracle, I gotta do it this time though atleast until the flats sorted I dont really have a choice

D's said:
Welcome to Bluelight @Milo41 !
Coming off of benzos suck mate, and it can be deadly. Where I work most of the seizures we get are from guys that are detoxing from benzos, so hopefully you can have some available for the comedowns.
Maybe reach out in the health and recovery forum and start a recovery journal, or blog. Talk a little about what's really been going on with you.
Let any of know if you need anything at all. <3
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I've always got benzos mate, I cant ever see me being off them to be completely honest but I'd like to atleast get my use down a bit
 
Thought I'd update, Ihavnt been on here in a fair while though I've been doing well. Start of the story iant so great but the ending is. I remember none of this other than speaking to a meth patient outside for my morning cig.
Start of August I was in a benzo blackout and ended up overdosing on a mix of tramadol, etizolam, xanax, zopiclone, zoloodem and alcohol. Ended up taking all my benzos and had no money at all to sort more. Mrs phoned the ambulance (for the overdose) and I ended up being in and out of hospital for a week. I kept getting chucked out even though I was a heavy benzo user and withdrawing which you could quite clearly see and they had been told multiple times not just by me. (I'd get chucked out then have to go back in by ambulance once the withdrawals were getting to severe.) I'd be given enough diaz to stop the withdrawal then sent home. They misreported stuff in my notes which I managed to get a picture of as the mrs told me to. Mental health services saw me (I'm known to them for multiple reasons) told me to go home and I'd get a follow up which I still havnt got. Was told by drs nurses and my gp that there was nothing they could do for me, mrs spent the week ringing drs and different services and was hung up on so many times its unreal. The only people that helped were the drug services but all they could do was suggest stuff until I'd been seen (I still havnt, though I've had a phone call from them to get a case worker sorted).
I cold turkeyed everything but the benzos and managed to ween myself off them myself over the next 2 months using a mixture of diaz and alcohol. I had a few times I thought I was dead for sure with fits and that but pulled through. (The brain zaps are unreal atm I'd completely forgot just how bad they were. And now I've been completely clean of everything but weed since the end of September.
Lifes now going well and if I didnt have my mrs there to be my angel I'd of been dead long before that OD
Sorry if this looks like rambling but I'm not the greatest at writing stuff down
 
Milo41 said:
Thought I'd update, Ihavnt been on here in a fair while though I've been doing well. Start of the story iant so great but the ending is. I remember none of this other than speaking to a meth patient outside for my morning cig.
Start of August I was in a benzo blackout and ended up overdosing on a mix of tramadol, etizolam, xanax, zopiclone, zoloodem and alcohol. Ended up taking all my benzos and had no money at all to sort more. Mrs phoned the ambulance (for the overdose) and I ended up being in and out of hospital for a week. I kept getting chucked out even though I was a heavy benzo user and withdrawing which you could quite clearly see and they had been told multiple times not just by me. (I'd get chucked out then have to go back in by ambulance once the withdrawals were getting to severe.) I'd be given enough diaz to stop the withdrawal then sent home. They misreported stuff in my notes which I managed to get a picture of as the mrs told me to. Mental health services saw me (I'm known to them for multiple reasons) told me to go home and I'd get a follow up which I still havnt got. Was told by drs nurses and my gp that there was nothing they could do for me, mrs spent the week ringing drs and different services and was hung up on so many times its unreal. The only people that helped were the drug services but all they could do was suggest stuff until I'd been seen (I still havnt, though I've had a phone call from them to get a case worker sorted).
I cold turkeyed everything but the benzos and managed to ween myself off them myself over the next 2 months using a mixture of diaz and alcohol. I had a few times I thought I was dead for sure with fits and that but pulled through. (The brain zaps are unreal atm I'd completely forgot just how bad they were. And now I've been completely clean of everything but weed since the end of September.
Lifes now going well and if I didnt have my mrs there to be my angel I'd of been dead long before that OD
Sorry if this looks like rambling but I'm not the greatest at writing stuff down
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And when the urge comes calling again, think about the Mrs. OK? Which is more important to you?
 
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