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luvoxygirl

luvoxygirl

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Hey everyone! Thought I'd post here first and introduce myself. I've been reading bluelight forums for years in regards to my opiate dependence and decided today I need to join this great community of people! I broke my neck in a car accident on 4th of July 2009 and have lower back problems, sciatica, etc. as well and pills have unfortunaty become my life. Its a horrible feeling to be controlled by little tiny pills but its a reality for more and more people every day, and a very sad one at that! I have a wealth of info in my brain from my own personal experience and the research I've done to answer my own questions. I hope that I can help answer some questions and learn even more about this crap I live my life around. Cheers!
 
Hello Luvoxygirl, welcome to Bluelight! :)

I was addicted to getting high, jist anything I could abuse to grant me artificial happiness.

Inhaling air freshners, glues, nail polishes, harmful gasses. Popping any pill I could obtain, even resorting to robbing my family and friends. Also, gulping anything with dextromethorphan or alcohol inside regardless of other ingredients. Mouthwash, cologne... well you get the idea.

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Talking with awesome friends on Bluelight like afterlyfestyle, neversickamymore, Epi, Acid, QeQ, Melancholy, Martin and Duck(if I didn't name you sorry, just so time consuming lol); also abstaining from all recreatiomal drugs including nicotine helped ease my depression.

Just find pleasant essence from every thought and action. It really improves one's mood.

If you ever want someone to speak to, don't hesitate to message me. :)
 
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Hi Cuhpcakes! Thank you for the warm welcome :) I too have had battles in the past to find artificial happiness, from crack to freon. I do still enjoy some nice herb and the pills are scripted to me for chronic pain (I wont lie, I enjoy them too!). The pills have become a problem the last few months, taking more, running out early, substituting with methadone, then wd'ing from the dones while taking oxy and still feeling sick, taking more and more just to feel well enough to function, VICIOUS CYCLE!

So I'm taking a break from my regular opies and replaced them with loperamide (immodium ad). I'm at 40 hours and feeling ok. I HAVE to take a break to get my tolly down. And I've already tapered the lope, dont want to be stuck on that. I just want to get back to taking my meds like scripted, and hopefully a lot less. I dont like not having control. Wishful thinking but I'd like to get back to taking them on bad days, AS NEEDED, if possible. The pain will tell. When you take pills daily for pain its hard to tell where your pain is because its been masked for so long. So my point of all this is not only to get my tolly down, but to really see where my pain is and make the decision on whether or not the pills are still necessary and to what degree I need them.

Thanks again for the warm welcome!
 
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