Hi guys,
After 2 years of opiate/opioid use I've finally kicked my habit. If you look through my previous posts you will watch me go from inquisitive novice to junkie. Started on Codeine; ended up on Heroin, then left to rot on Methadone. The only positive thing about these times is that I managed to just about hold my life together. Now I knowsome define a junkie as someone who has lost all control of their life, please believe that I had the habit qualitatively of a junkie (ended up on 90ml meth) but I managed to go through university with an B+average and maintain relationships with family/friends.
The incentive for my kick came when I was lying in bed flicking through the TV, and came across the movie Trainspotting. The first time I got high on opiates, I watched Trainspotting. When it came more recently I had an epiphany: opiates just weren't fun any more.
When that time of day came around again, I said fuck it, i'm not going to the clinic. Jumped off 30ml. That was 12 days ago, came through some nasty withdrawals but today is the first day I finally feel good again. Natural sensations, like the rush of wind in my hair as I blast down the motorway, or the goosebumps in my neck when my favourite song plays on the radio. It's great and I would take it over the synthetic haze of opiates any day. Also, I must add that Bluelight was an immense source of inspiration for me. One day I felt terrible and read Captain Heroins story, I though fuck if that guy can come through all that, I must be able too as well. Got me through some tough times.
At least I'm feeling that way just now. Hopefully it stays like this, as I was pretty depressed last week to tell the truth. But i'm winning the battle, day by day...Thanks BL
After 2 years of opiate/opioid use I've finally kicked my habit. If you look through my previous posts you will watch me go from inquisitive novice to junkie. Started on Codeine; ended up on Heroin, then left to rot on Methadone. The only positive thing about these times is that I managed to just about hold my life together. Now I knowsome define a junkie as someone who has lost all control of their life, please believe that I had the habit qualitatively of a junkie (ended up on 90ml meth) but I managed to go through university with an B+average and maintain relationships with family/friends.
The incentive for my kick came when I was lying in bed flicking through the TV, and came across the movie Trainspotting. The first time I got high on opiates, I watched Trainspotting. When it came more recently I had an epiphany: opiates just weren't fun any more.
When that time of day came around again, I said fuck it, i'm not going to the clinic. Jumped off 30ml. That was 12 days ago, came through some nasty withdrawals but today is the first day I finally feel good again. Natural sensations, like the rush of wind in my hair as I blast down the motorway, or the goosebumps in my neck when my favourite song plays on the radio. It's great and I would take it over the synthetic haze of opiates any day. Also, I must add that Bluelight was an immense source of inspiration for me. One day I felt terrible and read Captain Heroins story, I though fuck if that guy can come through all that, I must be able too as well. Got me through some tough times.
At least I'm feeling that way just now. Hopefully it stays like this, as I was pretty depressed last week to tell the truth. But i'm winning the battle, day by day...Thanks BL
