Finally Done with Speed

[datSTIMfreak]

Ok so I've been an amphetamine user for 6 years. Sometimes I've used every day for a few months, but mostly I've been a binger, going on 3-10 day runs at a time. I've quit amphetamine for long periods of time and got back into it. Throughout high school, while the little "pussy kids" were munching Adderall to get through a long study session, I was shooting up Dexedrine for kicks. The thing I've realized about IVing Dexedrine is like people shooting up Dex are like those lab rats self-administering IV coke-you go until your supply runs out, or you die. Me and my friends were known as the "Speed Crew" back in high school, we loved all drugs, but we would go ape shit for speed. A lot my friends in that Speed Crew got hooked on IV Dexedrine-I was for a long time, but some of my old friends are still doing it. I used to shoot up amounts of Dexedrine that are just insane, looking back, 150 mg shots at a time...It was bad. Lately I've been controlling my use to once in a while-I went two weeks without popping a Dexie. I took 30 mg (a tiny dose, but no tolerance anymore) of Dexedrine yesterday and got pretty damn euphoric. Then the comedown set in-I know that comedown better than most. And I looked at myself in the mirror and finally said, "I'm done." I have a prescription for Dexedrine, and I'm going to keep it, to sell, give away, etc. But I'm not going to take it. If I do, then I will tell myself I'm nothing, I have no self-control. As Renton from Trainspotting would say, I'm on my way and I'm choosing life.

 

[ocean]

Well, I have to say, it sounds like a freeing choice!
It will be hard, but it can be done with positive thinking and determination!
I am sure you will find much support in TDS

 

[Legerity]

Great choice Speed can be brutal, I can only imagine the ups and downs that IV use would cause. It seems harsh comedowns are sometimes a great way of changing our perception and getting us to make choices that are necessary for our own good.

Best of luck to you. If you feel that this is the right time then don't let your mind start telling you otherwise, it has a way of doing that.

 

[misteee]

good work, in my honest opinion speed is the worst thing to be addicted too, sure wont kill you right away but it will slowly torture you and everyone around you first.
your doing a great thing

 

[footscrazy]

Keep this post so you can read over it in the future, because I can assure you, you wont always feel this way. The psychological aspect of meth/amphetamine addiction takes grip of your mind like nothing else, and it will convince you that it was never that bad, that you can control it, that it was the best fucking thing in your life. Speed addicition changes your brain, and your brain will pull out no stops in convincing you to give it that dopamine rush it craves.

 

[The_Jiant_Junky]

Good luck. I've known a few speed junkys that have tried to quit. It's about impossible I think. Especially if you still have the script. If you really want to quit, get rid of the script and stop hanging out with other speed users.

 

[godlovesugly]

good work, in my honest opinion speed is the worst thing to be addicted too, sure wont kill you right away but it will slowly torture you and everyone around you first.
your doing a great thing

i agree with this...i have been an addict for 7 years. had my thing with every drug. used to heroin big time. but more recently, its been meth.. i can honestly say, speed has been the hardest for me to quit and has caused more havoc on my life [and my mind] then any other drug ive done. in my opinion also, i think speed is the worst drug. more specifically meth, at least for me...but ya know, different dope for different folks.


good job though really:] i commend you. i know how hard it is.