Final mxe trip fucked me over!

[Spacemonkey5000]

So i had thrown away my last stash of mxe, except for about 200mg that was gonna do for one last hole.

Started the night by going to the movies with my gf to watch prometheus, dosed about 50mg before we went and the movie was awesome, totally got into the plot and really enjoyed it all.


So when we got home i decided to eat the rest while making a joint and smoking it.

Then we got into bed and soon after i started to hole, it started out good but i felt it was very strong and i had no idea about what was happening.

after sometime i heard my gf talking to me and she was pissed off, some how she had woke up and noticed me being all fucked up, since i was secrectly holing like this and had been doing it for a while now.

Somehow she got everything out of me, how i had been dosing before bed for months now and i just told her everything.


Basicly my life is ruined now because ive abused this shit, my back has gotten bad from taking this shit somehow, my muscle patterns are fucked up so my posture is off and it gives me back pain.

Ive tried to rehab it for months but im still in pain, hopefully now when im out of mxe my body will readjust itself with the physical rehab im doing.

My gf since 7years will probably leave me and take our kid with us, i have no job and without her i will have no way to afford my appartment.


I´m fucked and its all because i could ot keep away from this vicious whore called mexxy.

 

[tripnotyzm]

Sorry to hear about that dude.
Drugs like mxe constantly seems to bring troubles to peoples lives in very similar manners.
Honesty is one thing i have learnt to follow with my partner. There's no need to hide it, and if the drug is genuinely causing you life problems (but you can't get off it), then telling your partner about it is often a great step in recovering, if they can come to terms to and handle what has been going on.
It sucks she had to find out the hard way man.
I really hope your girl and your kids will stand by you through this, its such a shame to see these troubles arise so frequently from these types of drugs.
Gain her trust again, be open and honest with her about everything, and maybe she will come through

 

[itsok]

It is typical that someone would be mad if she/he found out that the partner was abusing drugs behind their back for months. It would be atypical if she wasn't angry.

It is good that you are being honest with her now. Hope that she will calm down and if you are really repentant (and not just because she found out) and want help, perhaps she will support you through this difficult time in your life.