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fighting meth, speed, amphetamine cravings

dj_esky

dj_esky

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its been a week since my last mega re-lapse into the world of hardcore amphetamines

at the moment, the only thing going through my mind is I want to get super high on some sort of amphetamine. I found myself having a floor patrol around the part of my house that i used to intake this horrible drug hoping to find some trace of it.

I could go out and get some speed, but I don't want to, Yet all I can think about is getting high. I know its all in my head, but I just can't seem to keep my mind away from some sort of powerful amphetamine.

I'm watching TV to try keep my mind away, I had a cup of coffee, I've tried to satisfy myself in all ways I can possibly think of to keep away from amps.

what can I do? i just want to get high....
 
My drug of choice is also methamphetamine. Just like you I was on carpet patrol (I call it shard hunting) almost everytime I got high. Anyway, I find that sleeping and eating as much as you can helps the most. I haven't banged dope in almost a month, and I was slamming a decent amount. It helps to realize that you are used to an amount of dopamine in your drain that is 1200x the normal level. Of course you are going to feel like shit and your brain is going to want to get back to that level if it thinks that that's where it should be. When I come down, I expect to feel like shit for a week or so and I embrace the fact that there is a price to pay for getting that high. Easier said than done, I know, but give yourself time. Eat, eat, eat, and eat some more. And sleep. Remember that technically metamphetamine is psychologically addictive as opposed to physically addictive. That helped me because once I realized that it was all in my head, I was able to stop when I wanted to. And of course, I found cannabis and alcohol are excellent ways to ease the discomfort.

Just my thoughts on the matter. I hope you are able to accomplish your goal--be it getting high less, stopping completely, or not feeling like you have to get high. Best wishes to you!
 
being unemployed, not being able to find a job or get unemployment benefits, made me stop using ice. And everything else. Including antidepressants and benzos I am prescribed. Now that I am off of everything and completely without any money....

I just want to die.
 
I've never done meth but Dexedrine has been a long time friend and I know how it feels to crave amphetamine. It's always hard for me to resist it, I don't feel the need to take a ton of it when I do it I just feel that my mind is much less sharp without Adderall or Dexedrine and I really like to have my mind working with that amphetamine efficiency. Weed and Alcohol always made the cravings worse for me but benzos used to work. Opiates always work and pretty much content me.

Of course all this becomes problematic if you're just constantly substituting drugs, to truly heal you have to replace these drug activities with other activities that are drug free. I've only managed to learn to moderate my drug use and cut out weed and alcohol.

I deliberately chose to get prescribed Ritalin because I don't enjoy it the way I do amphetamine so I use that to satisfy my cravings, I just take it as prescribed with my Kpins and Subs and try and get on with life. Having my drugs prescribed to me has helped me avoid the horrible benders I used to end up on when I used more street drugs.

I still take a few steps backwards every now and then, I'm not perfect, if you can find a way to use dexedrine instead of meth that would be a step in the right direction, it can take awhile to be completely drug free even when you want to be. Amphetamine cravings are tough to resist or ignore when you like that kind of high, but if you want to resist them bad enough I believe you will.
 
just came back from the hospital, Had stitches put in my head and got something for the pain.

I'm using Dexamphetamine for ADHD, but meth was always the thing that sent me crazy, At the moment I want to just stop using meth completely, than I'm going to get off the Dex.
I've been taking dex for 18 years now and I'm just sick of all amphetamines.

I want to experience what life is because I don't know what the world is like without amphetamines.
 
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