Fighting Ghosts and Memories

[Rollingrrl]

-I wrote this last year. I've been questioning posting it for a while. Obviously its very personal. But maybe someone will be able to relate though I don't wish certain experiences on anyone. So enjoy it for what it is, thats how I try feel when I read it-

~Shelly~

Blue skies and warm summer breezes
don't touch the darkness in my soul.
Nor the sunlight and daydreams heal my sorrow
Amber rays at sunrise don't yet ease
the fears that grip me during my dreams.
I've been fighting against memories
long ago horrors born of another place
unspeakable pain at his hands, I plead
with the ghost of him, I can see his face
in my dreams turning them to night terrors.
I awake, cold and sweating, alone and scared
My own screams ring out from the misty past.
I cower from him, he who isn't really there
I gasp as I turn on the light, less fear at last
Less fear, true but some's always there.

 

[neverwas]

the fears that grip me during my dreams.
I've been fighting against memories
long ago horrors born of another place
unspeakable pain

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in my dreams turning them to night terrors.
I awake, cold and sweating, alone and scared
My own screams ring out from the misty past.

arg...all to real for me youve put my reality into words and written them down.

on another note ur choice of style and writting was good to read. i very easily identified with it...almost a lil to well...

 

[E-girl]

when you can face something, even if its a long time after the fact, i think it kind of heals you a little bit.
or maybe that's just me. but i feel stronger after i confront my fears.
if i wrote this, i would be proud of this.