Fighting Fire With Fire? UPDATE
Marijuana, the double edged sword. I have had many of my life's best times while being a regular user of marijuana and the absolute worse.
When it was all said and done I needed to stop.Anxiety, paranoia, panic, OCD, and I'd assume it align with psychosis based on the state I found myself. Of course with stopping some of this eased but when you're in that state of mind daily for quite some time, I certainly feel it molds your train of thought, and till this day many aspects of the mindset have embedded in my pysche for the worst.
Looking back at some of my peaks in life, marijuana was there, and despite marijuana being a catalyst for my lowest of lows, I'm tempted to experiment. I've dabbled since stopping, a toke here or there, ranging from the worst case scenario of impending doom to a mildly enjoyable time.
Now, my idea comes into play, baring the brunt head on, fighting fire with fire, make use of the hair of the dog from the same one that bit me. Attempting to smoke daily, heavily, for about a month, as an attempt to build immunity/tolerance and perhaps make use of the beneficial side effects. I've tried this before and every time within days I felt it was too much to handle, but perhaps there is a light at the end of the tunnel?
In the past a few highs have set me back I feel quite a bit, but who knows, maybe if I just go at it full force, it may work in my favor? Personally, a little critical thought tells me bad idea, this can be really destructive, but I'm desperate.
Thoughts?
Marijuana, the double edged sword. I have had many of my life's best times while being a regular user of marijuana and the absolute worse.
When it was all said and done I needed to stop.Anxiety, paranoia, panic, OCD, and I'd assume it align with psychosis based on the state I found myself. Of course with stopping some of this eased but when you're in that state of mind daily for quite some time, I certainly feel it molds your train of thought, and till this day many aspects of the mindset have embedded in my pysche for the worst.
Looking back at some of my peaks in life, marijuana was there, and despite marijuana being a catalyst for my lowest of lows, I'm tempted to experiment. I've dabbled since stopping, a toke here or there, ranging from the worst case scenario of impending doom to a mildly enjoyable time.
Now, my idea comes into play, baring the brunt head on, fighting fire with fire, make use of the hair of the dog from the same one that bit me. Attempting to smoke daily, heavily, for about a month, as an attempt to build immunity/tolerance and perhaps make use of the beneficial side effects. I've tried this before and every time within days I felt it was too much to handle, but perhaps there is a light at the end of the tunnel?
In the past a few highs have set me back I feel quite a bit, but who knows, maybe if I just go at it full force, it may work in my favor? Personally, a little critical thought tells me bad idea, this can be really destructive, but I'm desperate.
Thoughts?
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