Fictitious Fondness

[Nik137]

There's a look you give
which suspends time and
puts me in a state of ecstacy.
It's at those times
that I feel extraordinary.
You have this natural ability
to capture me,
transfer me to an alternate place
and send warming chills through me.
Sadly these sweet experiences
only occur frequently.
Desperatly I yearn for your
acceptance of me.
Your un-affectionate attention
teases my heart and creates a
sadness in me.
It's only in a dreamy drunken state
that you acknowledge me.
You're a theif of my vulnerability.
I posted this poem I wrote because I want to know how other people feel about this emotion. Let me know what ya think.
Peace & Love
Nik137

 

[lilygirl]

i know what you mean! it's almost like people get a kick out of teasing others with desire... when they know the other person is practically addicted to them.
i've fallen prey to this emotion far too many times, it's almost like i don't mind the falseness of it all, because it feels so good when they're being kind.
i love your title, and the way you expressed this emotion. hopefully we'll both find someone that doesn't feel the need to do that to us.
-lil

 

[Nik137]

lilygirl
Thanks for your response, it makes me really happy that someone relates to that feeling. I know exactly what you were saying about not minding the falseness of the situation when in it because the comforting feeling you get is enough to over-ride your decisions. I feel that shit... I know exactly how that feels.
Peace & Love
-Nik137-

 

[yoUr bLiSS]

oh yes i know all about boys whom seem to fall all over themsleves over me in that "dreamy drunken" state yet seem to find it almost impossible to acknowledge me in the sobering light.... great work!

 

[*Cosmic Mist*]

Goddamn Goddamn - that's all i have to say. people do this all the time, and if they had more respect for one another then people wouldn't feel so down all the time.
SOrry, it's just a bit close to the bone at the moment... i understand your peom, and yes, i relate very well... Don't let it taint your view of things though, otherwise you'll end up as jaded as a mofo - which is never a good thing.