_Chillz305
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- Aug 17, 2021
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Hey, BL tonight I’m going to introduce a situation which seems common today in hopes to start a dialogue to help myself and others who have been or are trying to figure a way out of this position. I am trying to detox off fentanyl.
I don’t do it to get high, I am trying to feel sane and maintain.
I have been using suboxone for a week doing the Bernese method, slowly introducing the sub in small .5-1mg increments and smoking my fenty through any signs of precipitated Wd.
A couple months ago I went through a terrible time where I fed myself waaay too much sub and was sick for 24 hours. I think I might be traumatized in some ways.
Tonight was the first evening after taking 1mg of suboxone, that I went for a walk to get away from the dope. In an about an hour the weird feelings I associate with precip are getting intense. It feels like a bad shroom trip or something always I worry about becoming physically ill if I don’t smoke a bag. Thankfully a friend is there to talk me through the anxiety. I wrote in my journal that I was feeling shaky, cold and mentally unwell during that hour. I ride it out as long as I can, but We smoke and I feel better. I know I will not be throwing up tonight.
I am taking every day with a grain of salt because I do not know what to expect from the suboxone.
My friend is also doing it too and is taking 2mg already, and claiming a world of better feeling. Says she will cut the dope in a few days.
Anyways, I can only speak for myself but I know I am voicing for everyone when I say this is a hell of a mental force to deal with. I am not sure how much of it it mental for me or is it really precipitated withdrawal and I’m just making myself sick every time I take my microdose of sub and if I don’t smoke to cure myself what will happen?
I am going to keep taking the suboxone the way I am, if anyone wants me to elborate I can. I would like any advice I can get.
I am doing this my self , but my fiance is in a blind detox center, where I actually think he’s getting methadone. He will be in for 10 days and has outpatient care lined up so we are serious about our recovery. I need to be getting myself off this shit and paving the way I can’t let my anxieties over rule my body. Writing this post helped me find an outlet tonight and I feel better because I’m getting my thoughts out, please continue the thread if you I have anything to say. I’ll keep posting
if it helps me
Also I speculate I have developed a pelvic disorder because I am always having trouble using the restroom. I’m sure it has everything to do with these drugs, I’ve experienced symptoms before when addicted to H. It stopped when I got clean. I am going to a specialist in a few weeks If anyone can offer any advice on this topic I’m also willing to elaborate. It is just hard to use the restroom and I am constantly constipated cannot relax poop without screaming it out, and have had bladder pains for no reason.
I don’t do it to get high, I am trying to feel sane and maintain.
I have been using suboxone for a week doing the Bernese method, slowly introducing the sub in small .5-1mg increments and smoking my fenty through any signs of precipitated Wd.
A couple months ago I went through a terrible time where I fed myself waaay too much sub and was sick for 24 hours. I think I might be traumatized in some ways.
Tonight was the first evening after taking 1mg of suboxone, that I went for a walk to get away from the dope. In an about an hour the weird feelings I associate with precip are getting intense. It feels like a bad shroom trip or something always I worry about becoming physically ill if I don’t smoke a bag. Thankfully a friend is there to talk me through the anxiety. I wrote in my journal that I was feeling shaky, cold and mentally unwell during that hour. I ride it out as long as I can, but We smoke and I feel better. I know I will not be throwing up tonight.
I am taking every day with a grain of salt because I do not know what to expect from the suboxone.
My friend is also doing it too and is taking 2mg already, and claiming a world of better feeling. Says she will cut the dope in a few days.
Anyways, I can only speak for myself but I know I am voicing for everyone when I say this is a hell of a mental force to deal with. I am not sure how much of it it mental for me or is it really precipitated withdrawal and I’m just making myself sick every time I take my microdose of sub and if I don’t smoke to cure myself what will happen?
I am going to keep taking the suboxone the way I am, if anyone wants me to elborate I can. I would like any advice I can get.
I am doing this my self , but my fiance is in a blind detox center, where I actually think he’s getting methadone. He will be in for 10 days and has outpatient care lined up so we are serious about our recovery. I need to be getting myself off this shit and paving the way I can’t let my anxieties over rule my body. Writing this post helped me find an outlet tonight and I feel better because I’m getting my thoughts out, please continue the thread if you I have anything to say. I’ll keep posting
if it helps me
Also I speculate I have developed a pelvic disorder because I am always having trouble using the restroom. I’m sure it has everything to do with these drugs, I’ve experienced symptoms before when addicted to H. It stopped when I got clean. I am going to a specialist in a few weeks If anyone can offer any advice on this topic I’m also willing to elaborate. It is just hard to use the restroom and I am constantly constipated cannot relax poop without screaming it out, and have had bladder pains for no reason.