I am posting this thread for one reason and one reason only: To save someone's life. The reason the title is written is for anyone Googling any of the terms in the title and hopefully they can come across my thread for helpful advice.
I had another, *sigh* (not by close the first) traumatic experience happen to me lately. I had to check myself into the emergencey room at the hospital because I was hysterically upset for almost a week straight: I lost grip: this is COMPLETELY unrelated to using ANY type of drugs, what-so-ever. I've been sober over 5 years straight, and the traumatic experience brought to a hospital where they prescribed me some antianxiety medicine (since my past left me with a bit of an anxiety disorder).
After the hospital experience a friend of mine gave me some pain killers and muscle relaxers (incl some benzos, but irrelevant currently). I soon ran out of those, and realized how much BETTER I had felt about Everything in my Whole life. The chase was born. This is only about 8 weeks ago from todays post date. I ended up able to get my hands on some more pain killers and even a:
25mcg per hr (72hrs) transdermal Fentanyl patch with NDC labeled above, and a pharmaceutical co below. The patch is generic I believe, I am not sure but believe it to be gel (not matrix plastic, it is a white package and in red font. (Some font on the back in black, and the pharmaceutical co in blue.)
I felt this post was important enough to take away from my busy life, as of late, and give a detailed experience of what happen to me. The reason is, while researching fentanyl I had come across several sites, incl this forum.
Its disappointing when things get so strict that someone looking for advice is neglected because they are an 'Addict'! Even so, I'd rather not accidentally let someone going through a hard enough time as it is O.D. because they're 'trying to get high', but for some of the info I found there was not enough trusted info, and now that I've done it I felt this forum was the best to share the experience as it waws high in a Google search for fentanyl several times.
So here it is:
(Briefly I will state I have no high tolerance to long term pain management which is why I decided not to stick the patch, I am SOOO glad I did not stick it!)
25mcg per hr transdermal fentanyl patch releases 25 micrograms of fentanyl per hour for UP TO 72 hours, but is known to have less time, and is also not a very long "high". There really isnt much of a high to it. Really... its basically a numbing feeling. It was created for long term pain management, and the effects are physically not very euphoric, but as for in my situation the moment came where, no longer did I give a fuck, after my friend came over and talked me out of licking the fentanyl patch, I opened up the package, and begin my experiementation.
25mcg per hr fent patch is = to a total, over 72 hrs, 25mg (milligrams) of fentanyl. I found info online of people chewing the patch. Luckily at the final rest of my research I came across a last post that said to use a qtip. Luckily someone posted that, and thats what I did.
I handled the fent VERY carefully. I put on bright lighting, I opend all the plastic containers with $20 tweezers I have, wet the qtip well with my tongue, and rubbed it quite gently, yet thoroughly over the lowest half of the patch and possibly over did it a bit.
I begin to lick it little by little. Soon I had gotten a pretty good dose. I wasn't sure if I had quite felt it, and suddenly (not long after the few small test licks) the feeling came upon me as a heavy weight in my legs. My body went completely numb, and the top of my head felt extreme tingle sensations. My breathing went from regular breaths to very deep shallow *conscious* breathing. I had a mild panic attack and begin pacing back and forth in my living room. I felt extremely hot and I opened my front door.
I called my friend to walk me through the intitial peak of the instant effects. I gave him my address in case I lost consciousness while we talked. That is the best way to describe the very first feeling. (Not to scare anyone reading it, because as in my situation, over all it was worth it because I NEEDED it at the time and was glasd I lived to tell about it.) I felt as if any moment I was going to lose consciousness and my friend was then instructed to call 911, give them my address, explain that I had dosed myself with fent and lost consciousness while on the phone.
But, that is not what happen. I lived to see another day, and I've seen about 4 completely blasted on fent and a bit here and there, pot.
So heres the final break down.
I begin licking the fent qtips in this fasion. I did my fair share of reading, and I never found as detailed info from someone using off of a presrciption, or who wasn't a heavy opioid user, or novice for advice. The qtip technique probably saved my life. Before I read that post, taht morning, I had planned to transdermally wear the patch. I text my friend who said he would come baby sit. When he got there he talked me completely out of using it, and we then blazed, but I was not feeling well, and fiening for the opiate. When he left he made sure to tell me not to use the fent. About 10 minutes later and the package was open in front of me.
I spent the next 2 days using the qtip method, and sealing the package with tape again, and closing that in a medicine bottle. As SOON as fent is open its important to not let air 'dry it out'. Fentanyl is FUCKING strong orally. 25mg transdermal patch is = to approx. 80-120mg morphine I had read somewhere. Its basically about 100mg of morphine over 72 hours. 1000mcg fent =100mg morphine. That would mean that approx 1.2mg of morphine per hour in 72 hours.
The high is not euphoric, I can attest to that, but all in all it will get you away from that mundane sober drudge, depression...w/e you call your demons. I ran out of weed, that night fent worked. Just like tonight.
Last night I licked the patch. It tastes more bitter than a grapefruit. Its exactly like the smell of rubbing alcohol. And then this is what happen.
I immediately felt nausia, my body suddenly ached, and my kidneys felt heavy, also a pretty significant headache came upon me. This is already after 3 days "qtipping" fentanyl.
I begin having a slight panic attack, stood up paced, slow breathing. I realized how someone could easily die from using this transdermally. Once you feel those heavy waves of numbness, your mind clicks in and wants to relax but your body is FULL of morphine after 10 hours or so for however long it takes the fent to kick in. Thats not good for a novice AT ALL!!
Fentanyl basically is best described as getting extremely fucking wasted on alcohol without the drunk sickness. (I do not drink.) Even my kidneys felt like someone punched them, also I wasn't feeling like eating much, Im texting A TON, Im extremely lazy, I am having trouble remembering what Im talking about while talking, I feel like I look like shit, and its difficult to fall asleep.
All of that didnt bother me. I ran out of weed tonight and begin qtipping. The qtip is not absorbing the fent very well, so I may have to resort to licking again. I am buying weed tomorrow and do not plan on going back to fent. It was a great experience, and I hope I can help if only 1 person by my story. I am new to opioids, but not new to drug use. I am currently an active oxy user, or hydrocodone if I must, but thats basically my dragon and not looking for anything harsher.
My real only complaint so far is these 3 main reasons over all about opioids: 1) not easily accessible, or otherwise expensive 2) running out gives a major headache and 3) I feel better using painkillers, they should tailor a type of opioid for depression. It would probably saved 1,000's of lives a year. I was extremely suicidal before using opiates. I feel much better even when I run out now. But the chase now continues..
I had another, *sigh* (not by close the first) traumatic experience happen to me lately. I had to check myself into the emergencey room at the hospital because I was hysterically upset for almost a week straight: I lost grip: this is COMPLETELY unrelated to using ANY type of drugs, what-so-ever. I've been sober over 5 years straight, and the traumatic experience brought to a hospital where they prescribed me some antianxiety medicine (since my past left me with a bit of an anxiety disorder).
After the hospital experience a friend of mine gave me some pain killers and muscle relaxers (incl some benzos, but irrelevant currently). I soon ran out of those, and realized how much BETTER I had felt about Everything in my Whole life. The chase was born. This is only about 8 weeks ago from todays post date. I ended up able to get my hands on some more pain killers and even a:
25mcg per hr (72hrs) transdermal Fentanyl patch with NDC labeled above, and a pharmaceutical co below. The patch is generic I believe, I am not sure but believe it to be gel (not matrix plastic, it is a white package and in red font. (Some font on the back in black, and the pharmaceutical co in blue.)
I felt this post was important enough to take away from my busy life, as of late, and give a detailed experience of what happen to me. The reason is, while researching fentanyl I had come across several sites, incl this forum.
Its disappointing when things get so strict that someone looking for advice is neglected because they are an 'Addict'! Even so, I'd rather not accidentally let someone going through a hard enough time as it is O.D. because they're 'trying to get high', but for some of the info I found there was not enough trusted info, and now that I've done it I felt this forum was the best to share the experience as it waws high in a Google search for fentanyl several times.
So here it is:
(Briefly I will state I have no high tolerance to long term pain management which is why I decided not to stick the patch, I am SOOO glad I did not stick it!)
25mcg per hr transdermal fentanyl patch releases 25 micrograms of fentanyl per hour for UP TO 72 hours, but is known to have less time, and is also not a very long "high". There really isnt much of a high to it. Really... its basically a numbing feeling. It was created for long term pain management, and the effects are physically not very euphoric, but as for in my situation the moment came where, no longer did I give a fuck, after my friend came over and talked me out of licking the fentanyl patch, I opened up the package, and begin my experiementation.
25mcg per hr fent patch is = to a total, over 72 hrs, 25mg (milligrams) of fentanyl. I found info online of people chewing the patch. Luckily at the final rest of my research I came across a last post that said to use a qtip. Luckily someone posted that, and thats what I did.
I handled the fent VERY carefully. I put on bright lighting, I opend all the plastic containers with $20 tweezers I have, wet the qtip well with my tongue, and rubbed it quite gently, yet thoroughly over the lowest half of the patch and possibly over did it a bit.
I begin to lick it little by little. Soon I had gotten a pretty good dose. I wasn't sure if I had quite felt it, and suddenly (not long after the few small test licks) the feeling came upon me as a heavy weight in my legs. My body went completely numb, and the top of my head felt extreme tingle sensations. My breathing went from regular breaths to very deep shallow *conscious* breathing. I had a mild panic attack and begin pacing back and forth in my living room. I felt extremely hot and I opened my front door.
I called my friend to walk me through the intitial peak of the instant effects. I gave him my address in case I lost consciousness while we talked. That is the best way to describe the very first feeling. (Not to scare anyone reading it, because as in my situation, over all it was worth it because I NEEDED it at the time and was glasd I lived to tell about it.) I felt as if any moment I was going to lose consciousness and my friend was then instructed to call 911, give them my address, explain that I had dosed myself with fent and lost consciousness while on the phone.
But, that is not what happen. I lived to see another day, and I've seen about 4 completely blasted on fent and a bit here and there, pot.
So heres the final break down.
I begin licking the fent qtips in this fasion. I did my fair share of reading, and I never found as detailed info from someone using off of a presrciption, or who wasn't a heavy opioid user, or novice for advice. The qtip technique probably saved my life. Before I read that post, taht morning, I had planned to transdermally wear the patch. I text my friend who said he would come baby sit. When he got there he talked me completely out of using it, and we then blazed, but I was not feeling well, and fiening for the opiate. When he left he made sure to tell me not to use the fent. About 10 minutes later and the package was open in front of me.
I spent the next 2 days using the qtip method, and sealing the package with tape again, and closing that in a medicine bottle. As SOON as fent is open its important to not let air 'dry it out'. Fentanyl is FUCKING strong orally. 25mg transdermal patch is = to approx. 80-120mg morphine I had read somewhere. Its basically about 100mg of morphine over 72 hours. 1000mcg fent =100mg morphine. That would mean that approx 1.2mg of morphine per hour in 72 hours.
The high is not euphoric, I can attest to that, but all in all it will get you away from that mundane sober drudge, depression...w/e you call your demons. I ran out of weed, that night fent worked. Just like tonight.
Last night I licked the patch. It tastes more bitter than a grapefruit. Its exactly like the smell of rubbing alcohol. And then this is what happen.
I immediately felt nausia, my body suddenly ached, and my kidneys felt heavy, also a pretty significant headache came upon me. This is already after 3 days "qtipping" fentanyl.
I begin having a slight panic attack, stood up paced, slow breathing. I realized how someone could easily die from using this transdermally. Once you feel those heavy waves of numbness, your mind clicks in and wants to relax but your body is FULL of morphine after 10 hours or so for however long it takes the fent to kick in. Thats not good for a novice AT ALL!!
Fentanyl basically is best described as getting extremely fucking wasted on alcohol without the drunk sickness. (I do not drink.) Even my kidneys felt like someone punched them, also I wasn't feeling like eating much, Im texting A TON, Im extremely lazy, I am having trouble remembering what Im talking about while talking, I feel like I look like shit, and its difficult to fall asleep.
All of that didnt bother me. I ran out of weed tonight and begin qtipping. The qtip is not absorbing the fent very well, so I may have to resort to licking again. I am buying weed tomorrow and do not plan on going back to fent. It was a great experience, and I hope I can help if only 1 person by my story. I am new to opioids, but not new to drug use. I am currently an active oxy user, or hydrocodone if I must, but thats basically my dragon and not looking for anything harsher.
My real only complaint so far is these 3 main reasons over all about opioids: 1) not easily accessible, or otherwise expensive 2) running out gives a major headache and 3) I feel better using painkillers, they should tailor a type of opioid for depression. It would probably saved 1,000's of lives a year. I was extremely suicidal before using opiates. I feel much better even when I run out now. But the chase now continues..
