Feening/Craving - what makes YOU feen?

[`bLow?]

sobriety tbh.

 

[Christ]

Having money.

 

[Endless Night]

ayo for yayo
walk around with yayo
all in my nasal
must have been crazed



song alwalys makes me want coke

 

[orbital_forest]

stress makes me want oxycontin,a beautiful day or a good mood makes me crave psychedelics or mdma,life makes me crave ganja

 

[hereliesclarity]

what makes YOU feen?

These forums. 8(

and having excess amounts of money always makes me want to purchase nothing but drugs.

 

[yummy22]

..............

 

[Tiesto]

Life makes me fiend.

I just can't take it sometimes.

Everyday/night I smoke weed. And every morning I wake up so fucking tired and burnt out I say to myself "Fuck, I should stop smoking weed" But then I go to school, some shit may tick me off, I'll come home and roll up. It's just what I do. Or I'll go to work, and the only thing that's keepin me from knocking a customer's teeth out is the fact that I have weed in my drawer at home and I'm gonna roll up when I get home.

I am a weed fiend.

I fiend for opiates every now n then. I can easily see myself falling into that hole. I've been doing them everyweek recently...And whenever I grab, I get like 3 40s, so I'm usually doped up for 3/4 days straight. Then the day I don't have them I'm like "Fuck, I want another", but that passes.

I really just wish I didn't fiend for weed as much as I do. It bothers me so much. But if I stop smoking it, I know I'll pick up something else...And I don't wanna do that. I really hated fiending for weed when I was paying like $50 a week to smoke. But now, I don't even have to pay. So it's like, "Why not?". Whenever I don't smoke, I drive myself insane. My girlfriend doesn't help either, "Just get some, there's nothing wrong with having a joint at night". So I'm just like fuck it, whatever. End up gettin it. Now that I think of it, if she hadn't have said that to me, I wouldn't have gone out and done a few things which in turn led up to me getting it for free..

Right now I got weed, and almost every minute a thought pops into my head, "go smoke a bowl, just one, it'll be nice" but I reason that with the fact that I gotta go back to school in 1 1/2 hours, and I know I'll prolly knock out here if I get high - because that's what happened yesterday, and I hate that.

Jebus.

 

[Obyron]

Browsing BL forums and hearing about how X person is fucked up beyond belief on the drug that I wish I had but can't find.

That definitely gets me. I'd like to try K, but I can't find it here, so I read all these great K experiences and it makes me twitchy.

The thing that gets me for drugs I have done is any kind of deja vu or synchronicity. Psychedelics always make me notice things that are connected in that way moreso than I do when I'm baseline, so any time I catch a feeling of deja vu it makes me want to gobble gels.

 

[ChemicalSmiles]

boredom ^ ^ or people doing it in front of you :D

 

[Catfish]

A few drinks and I'll be on my knees begging for crack cocaine.

 

[dankstersauce]

Or for the recovered addicts, who dont use no more, when for the most part you are over it and dont even think of it but sometimes it just hits you and you think of it and want it so bad.

i've been clean from all substances for like 6 1/2 months. there are a few things that make me fiend.
1. readin bluelight, i think it's a way for me to use without using. read about all the shit people are doing, the highs and the lows.

2. i was reading a trip report for salvia on erowid the other day. and holy shit!!! my heart started pounding and i was like really like "man i wanna do some of that shit again"

3. when i think about past trips. i'm a recovering heroin addict, so like opiates, alcohol, coke shit like that i really have no desire to do anymore. but shit like pyscadelics and weed make me wanna use again. not even weed very much (as i will probably be on probation shortly and didn't like the jail experience enough to go back.) but damn reading about other peoples trips, or thinking about my own experiences, i wanna run out and get some mushrooms, acid or mescaline.

doing drugs to get high doesn't make me fiend. but if i'm doing drugs in order to enlarge my spiritual life and getting high is a by-product, that makes me fiend.
however just cuz i fiend doesn't mean i'm gonna go out and use. if some pyscadelics happen to fall into my hands maybe the time will be right.....until then i'll keep dreaming

 

[donkeyPUNCH]

Really guys - how should I have expected anyone to be able to understand such a obscure, strange, foreign word? I mean......this aint something like someone misusing "their" and "they're." And we all know how THAT one can sure throw a wrench into our reading comprehension. "Well, we went to her house, and their all smokin weed and... Wait - WHAT? "THEIR?" WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN?? CRAP! NOW I HAVE TO READ THE SENTENCE ALL OVER AGAIN!"

hahahaha lacey you kill me.

these forums make me want OC's like no other, especially the gallery. for some reason i always always ALWAYS end up only looking at the HUGE pill stashes and bag o' dope pics.... =/

 

[swifty]

music mostly, anytime I hear breaks or even some house music and I fiend

Sunny days when I reminisce about scattered sundays of benders past, I fiend a little.

Alcohol makes me a mindless drug fiend, as soon as I'm drunk I get that devil-may-care mindset and just consume drugs like locusts on a wheat crop

 

[psychetool]

Seeing people do coke drives me over the edge. I know it's terrible for me, I know it makes me feel TERRIBLE after use and I know it fucks with my prioritys but if I see someone blowing lines I GOTS TO HIT THAT. Thankfully I was the only cokehead in my group of friends so coming across other people using is very rare. I'm done with that shit. Until it's shoved under my nose.

 

[NFGvans628]

well ive been clean for over 3months now not by choice lol but anyways i always seem to crave my DOC when i hear music i used to nodd too or i when i go on the same roads i used to take to go to pittsbrugh to cop my drugs....i have alot of other stupid triggers but they are the everyday "i just fucking hit my head, i need a stamp bag now!" type of thing lol

 

[Khadijah]

^ yea me too drivin past the exit u used to get off at when you were goin to cop is always a lil bit of a trigger for feenin' aint it...

 

[spork]

• Listening to any dnb or even cheesy trance buildups o)
• Movies that accurately display the effects of drugs
• Reading about drugs
• Talking about drugs

I'm actually fiending for a variety substances right now heh

 

[Khadijah]

• Listening to cheesy trance buildups o)

I dont know my ass from my elbow when it comes to any kind of electronic music. from what i understand i would prolly be horribly rejected by anyone who even has a lil bit of knowledge about that type of music. all i know is one time i heard unchained melody while i was rollin and that shit was nuts.

So, thats just to show you that i know jack n shit about the whole deal......

and even with no knowlege of any of the shit, even if i never been to a rave in my life, i STILL feel like rollin when i hear cheesy trance buildups as you caled em .i know exactly what you mean.

It makes sense for someone who done it, to look back when they hear the music that was playin when they were partyin. but it aint like i got any memories of it to look back on.

so tghat supports my idea that I think the shit plays with your brain. theres prolly some mathematical formula they make trance with to fuck with your head and stimulate all the pleasure centers all at once with the right note progression n shit. cuz even non ravers can get off on that shit.

 

[-Guido-]

^ yea me too drivin past the exit u used to get off at when you were goin to cop is always a lil bit of a trigger for feenin' aint it...

That happened to me the other day!

 

[erosion]

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